1: How I first met him. 

I joined this outside club/group called Stripes (<- for their privacy)

He was a relative of them and it was our first fashion show at a school and he was the one who mentioned about it to us. So I met him then. 

2: When we met again. 

It was near Easter time when Stripes had Game Day and early Easter celebration. Two other members weren't there so him and the younger brother of the creator of the group came in for replacements. 

3: Meeting Again. 

It was for Stripes first car wash that we held. He came because we asked him too. 

4: And again. 

He asked for my contact. I asked him why he wanted it and he said just to keep in contact. 

5: And again. 

His graduation from high school. I went to it. 

6: Six Hours of Facetiming 

It was summer break and I ended up Facetiming with him for six hours long. From 12am to 6am in the morning. Yes that long. What did we talk about? A lot of things. I don't quite remember all but I remember some. 

7: Fate or Coincidence? 

I asked him to go camping with us over summer. He said he couldn't because he's going with his family that same week. Next thing I knew, I saw him walking pass the river we were swimming in. I asked the others "Is that Gray?" (Let's call him Gray.) they turned and said yeah it is him, why? I didn't have glasses on so I weren't sure. He was within the distance that I can't see clearly, surprised I was able to recognize him. He ran done to us and we asked him what he was doing there. He replied he was camping. 

8: School Dance. 

School started again and I asked him to on of my first school dance. I'm a senior my first year I was going to a dance and he was the first guy I asked to take with me to my dance. 

9: Singing Partners. 

He suggested a song that he liked to sing. It was between two girls for who to sing with him. I was chose to sing with him because he wanted me to sing with him.. 

10: The Fear

There were times I was scared that I will begin to fall for him. I really was scared because I didn't expect to fall for him. And I didn't want too because he was related to the last guy I had a crush on. They are good cousins. And he knew that I liked his cousin. 

11: Feelings 

I guess my feelings grew for him, but yet I didn't realize yet that I had like him. Jealously was here and there but I refused to believe it that I like him. It did take awhile to acknowledge the fact that I liked him. 

12: Grown Feelings. 

My feelings for him grew. I tried to not show it and I guess it was not as noticeable because I was just so normal to him. Especially how we always argue like couples.. 

13: Jealousy?

I was once facetiming my guy friend when he finished taking a shower. He came into the room (I was in the guys room because the girls were sleeping in the guys room and nobody was in the guys room). He stated "She at my place." He was topless. I grabbed my iPod and turned to him saying "I told him where I'm at already." And left the room. The next day he told my ex-crush that I was talking with my boyfriend and I told him that it was only my guy friend not my boyfriend. Don't be jealous. He basically replied, "I'm not jealous." Another time was where I was texting my friend, a girl, and continuously laughed because we kept hocking around. I went of to the girls room and continued to text in the room. He came in and brought his little niece to bother me. I continued to ignore him and laughed. I then told him "stop it, I'm just texting my friend and it's a girl, leave me alone." And he did for a while and came back to attack me one more time and stopped. Then one time when we were practicing our song and my guy friend facetimed me and texted me which I was gonna check he wouldn't let me check at all. He held onto my hand not letting me check so continued to practice with him. 

14: Cute? My boyfriend? 

People thought we were cute together and some even thought he'd be my boyfriend. I knew it wasn't quite possible. Why? I just knew it. 

15: Down Hill

Things started dying down. We don't talk as much, childish argue as much. Everything just sorta came to a stop, but my feelings were still the same, except stronger. 

16: Crush? 

I once asked him if he had anyone in mind and yes he did. It broke my heart. and I thought I'd be the bigger person and try to get over him and move on, but it didn't work. 

17: Argument. 

We got into a lot of arguments after the New Years.. And sorta stopped talking from there. 

18: Leaving

I left the group Stripes, and sorta thought I wouldn't see him as much anymore. 

19: Confession

I confessed to him on Jan. 28. The following week after I left Stripes, I thought that I wouldn't see him as much anymore. But it didn't go as expected. I saw him more than what I expected. 

20: Off Limit

For one whole month I thought I was over him, but no. Saw him on the first day of March and my heart couldn't go against him. He tried to kiss me twice, and tried to feed me beer (mouth to mouth). I didn't want to lose my first kiss to someone who's buzz/drunk.

21: It continued. 

My feelings continued again but I told myself that I could get over him. 

22: Confront

 I confronted him saying that I never expected to like him. I didn't want to like him. And I don't want to like him anymore. I don't regret saying it, though it hurt the both of us. 

23: Eye contact. 

I couldn't look at him at all. And I'm not the same to him. I don't argue with him anymore and I don't act the same how I used to towards him anymore. 

24: Impact. 

I'm surprised I left an impact on him, but I don't want little things to get to me. 

25: No More 

I agreed to sing with him again but then he decided not to sing with me anymore. His last chance but he chooses not to, so it's okay. I'm not gonna put up a fight. 

26: Distance. 

I feel a distance between us. It hurts me but it's good as well. That way I could get over him. 

27: I was asked. 

"how can you stand him?" (He's really short temper and hard to handle) I really don't know. "Don't you just want to have a day where you can just be with him?" Yes I do, but I'm trying to get over him. "What if you can't get over him?" I will- "what if you can't?" Okay now that you do mention it I'm scared I can't but I'll try. Maybe I won't but I will try to move on. 

28: Me

I'm scared that I really won't be able to get over him but I'll try my best to get over him though my heart won't fully move on. My heart aches here and there whenever I have to contact him or hear his name and someone who has the same name as his. I don't want to hear nothing of him. Not even his voice even if I miss him so much day by day and stuff. Because I'm trying my best to get over him. 

29: Extra

 We both had a film we filmed together. There was kiss scenes but I decided not to do it as an actual kiss

30: What do you think? 

What do you think? My friend once told me that it's like a korean drama lol. But I really don't know..