Idk someone asked me to type this up on ask.fm so here I am....

My little sister’s best friend introduced me to kpop this summer, according to my phone I got into Kpop on July 24,2013. At first I just got into SHINee because of Hello Baby, I didn’t even know their names, their group name, I didn’t even know that they were Kpop stars.

Hello Baby was during SHINee’s Ring Ding Dong Era, and the first thing I liked was Jonghyun’s hair, so when her friend asked me who my favorite member was, I said the guy with cool hair. Then later on she told me that he was Kim Jonghyun, the lead singer of the group.

After that she started showing me the music videos and the dances, and she asked me to learn Lucifer and Sherlock. It took me a while but after I learned Sherlock I got really into SHINee and their music.

Honestly Kpop is really important to me now,  especially SHINee, because in all honesty Kpop did change my life a lot. At the time it was introduced to me I was having a really hard time in school and I guess in life period. I wasn’t sure whether or not the things I did was worth doing. I didn’t think I was good enough for anything or anyone. So I was really down most of the time, though no one noticed because I’d always hide it.

Before I got into Kpop I was having a  real hard time in keeping friends. Most my friends would end up leaving me because I wasn’t the greatest person to be with. I’d always be either sad, mad, or just down right y.

But once I got into Kpop I guess you can say I started to smile again and started to be that happy person people liked.

Even though people think I'm weird for liking music that I can't really understand or fan girl whenever I see anything kpop. I don't really care. Yeah sure it hurts sometimes since they're insulting something that really means a lot to me but it's okay since I know that not everyone can have the same taste in music. That's just how life is. 

Though sometimes I find Kpop or anything revolving around it really affects me also, like I manage to sympazize with the kpop idols, and what ever happens to them sometimes really hit home for me too. Like when I hear about sasaengs and EXO I get really worried. Or when I hear that one of the idols got injured or sick because they have been training to hard I get really worried about them. 

SHINee will always have a special place in my heart since they made the biggest impact on my life. Though they don’t know me, or even know they had this big of an impact in a teenage girl’s life… they really mean a lot to me.

SHINee brought back my real smile, brought back happiness in my life, and I guess just full out brought me back to being an actual person. Even though I have those times where I break and I go back to the depressed me, I can always depend on Kpop or the Kpop community to bring my hope back.

This is why Kpop means a lot to me, because even though they’re on the other side of the world, they will always be capable of making me smile no matter how hard times get.

If only I could do that for them.

I know that they go through many hardships, it breaks my heart every time I see news about them being sick, or injured. Or if I see them on shows looking sick or a bit too skinny. But it also warms my heart because no matter what happens to them, they’re willing to put on a good show or a happy face for their fans because they know that their fans really care about them. And I believe that they really care about us too.

To me the warmth that kpop idols and kpop bring to my life really make up for the ty life I've been living so far. It also makes up for the ty relationship I have with my parents and family since I forget about those things when I'm listening to Kpop or watching K-dramas or variety shows.

 Sure I sometimes feel like everything and everyone would just be better with out me, well I'm kinda thinking like that while I type this, but I always have kpop and rely on to be my safehaven from all the bad things. 

So there it is. This is why I like Kpop so much.

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