My heart takes off on a high speed chase after putting down the phone. Baekhyun has leukemia and he’s getting worse. The words are ringing in my head, imprinting themselves deep in my brain. So this is the reason why he left without saying anything. Our days are numbered, and I had no idea until today. I made my way to the hospital, letting my feet carry me to the person I’m yearning to see. “BAEKHYUN” his name tastes heavy on my tongue. He snapped his head up to me, full of bewilderment. Before he could say anthing, I threw my arms around him and bawled like a child. “I hate you I hate you I hate you. Why didn’t you tell me beforehand? Why do you have to endure all this pain alone?” my tears were spilling on his hospital gown. I felt his hands my hair gently, just the way Baekhyun always does “Sorry. I don’t want to see you crying, I thought it would be much better if I leave without-“ I pressed my lips on him lightly, cutting his words. “I won’t leave you, ever. And we’ll get through this.” Lies. He clearly knows how many days he has left.

We spent the rest of his days like the old times. We took great amount of pictures together, laughing like mad people every time our shots turn bad. We recorded songs that we worked hard to compose while looking at the window, marveling at the stars twinkling in the vast expanse of the night sky. “I’ll turn into a star soon, right?” Baekhyun surprisingly uttered. His words pierced through my melting heart. “Not so soon. I won’t let that happen” I assured him but he’s certain it wont come true. He encases me in his arms, gently kissing the side of my head. “Promise me you’ll be strong on that day”. The darkness enveloped us as we listened to each other’s heartbeats.

The next morning, I woke up with his face close to mine. “You’re finally awake!” he exclaimed, he seemed extra happy today. “Soojung, can you buy me some flowers? I want daisies” I gladly accepted his favor and went out of the hospital, going straight to the nearest flower shop. “Excuse me, I would like to buy some daisies.” The old woman connected her eyes to mine, then glanced at something in her hand. “Oh, it’s her” I heard her mumble. What does she mean? “Here they are, I hope you love them, as much as your boyfriend loves you” I stood like a brick, absorbing what she just said. “Uhm, what did you just—“ she cuts me off in the middle of my sentence. “Last night, your boyfriend visited us and told us to prepare some daisies. He instructed us to give it to you once you come here. He even gave me this photograph”

Out of the blue, my phone rang. Why am I feeling like something’s off? Baekhyun’s name appeared on the screen. I hesitantly clicked the ‘accept’ button and placed the phone near my ear. “Soojung-ah…did you get it? I love you so much.” his voice is so weak like he’s about to die-. Oh please no. I stormed out of the store and rushed towards the emergency room. “Byun Baekhyun, time of death: 10:27am” I broke down on the floor, sitting in a pool of tears. I hugged the daisies tightly, almost killing them. Do they consider this as a heartache? When the truth is, it’s your entire body and soul that feel broken? A piece of note dropped on the floor, escaping from the bouquet of daisies. I recognized Baekhyun’s handwriting at once “Jung Soojung-ah, didn’t I tell you to be strong? I swear, I’ll be the brightest star in the sky so you could easily spot me from a far. I love you and I’ll always be watching you from heaven.”

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