I think I really just don't care anymore.  I hit a wall today in my life, and that really tears me apart inside.  I know they say life isn't fair, and that this is how life works, but seriously... I feel like nothing.  I go online and enter this virtual world of fanfics and dramas toget away from reality.  Don't get me wrong, I know the differences, but now I can't even do what I enjoy to do online cause of my so called "supportive" family who calls me brain dead for watching KPOP and K-Dramas.  So I'm stupid online when I try to get away from it, then I have to go back to reality where I was called lazy and a maid (yes I got called that today)  I'm nothing to my family..  How flipping awesome is that? I'm like a real Cinderella (minus the sisters).  Except in this fairy tail there is not one single person in the world who will come and save me from this hell I'm in.  That to me is enough to think about how much I hate my life.  Sure I had a strain of good luck with my new job and all, but what if I tell my mom...yeah that will go over smoothly.  Something along the lines of, "you're a dissapointment to this family, and you need to focus on the degree we are forcing you to go into."  I'm just at a loss for my life now.  I can't go to the school I want to, I can't study what I want to, and I will never be able to acheive my goals.  It should be my choice, but I'm to freaking nice to go against my family.  I mean I'm 21...I am a legal adult all over the world...why can't I just drop a pair and stand up to my family....oh that's right...cause I'll either get the crap beaten out of me, or I might as well be disowned and not belong to anyone..I just feel empty now..Ottokae?! T-T