This incredible thing.. 

So I pray to God so that God will give me the joy of tears and I pray for it in the afternoon. Then in the evening, I was so angry that I shed tears. That is one of the joy of tears.

The 2nd moment is where I ask for God to give me test to show God's love for me (because in my belief, God loves you when you are having a hardtimes because God gives you test) and I request for the joyness of tears and I request for it in the afternoon. So I had 2 wish which is a test for me and the joy of tears. In the evening, I was so angry, sad, feeling guilty and cried until my eyes is red. It took me some time to recover my eyes back to white again. That is the test God has given me and the joy of tears that I feel.

Then when I came home, the Modem can't be used because my brother didn't pay for it. In The evening I pray for the modem can be used again and the next morning I ask ''Dad why the modem can't be used?'' My dad answered ''Because your brother tidn't pay for it'' So I was like ohh but I didn't ask them to pay for it. So like 2 or 3 hours later my mom and my dad sacrifice some of their money to pay the modem back. My dad went out and right now I can use the internet...

Oh how grateful I was.