It was on 25th June, 2009 that I cried for a stranger for the first time.

It is on 12^th February, 2013 that I am crying for a stranger for the second time.

Yes, I cannot say that I knew Lim Yoon Taek, that would be ridiculous. But, I knew Lim Yoon Taek, the artist; the life of Ulala Session who would always steal my gaze. I admired him so much. One song, one video, one performance, and I knew and loved everything about his musical side. I did not follow the goings-on of his life since I felt that it would mean invading his privacy. However, I would come across random comments, stumble upon random articles that would speak about the group. That was how I learned of his marriage and the birth of his legacy that he would leave behind.

It , really. It so much that I have to lock myself in the bathroom and cry my eyes out, then wait will my eyes look the least red so that I can pass it off as lack of sleep. I hadn’t slept the previous night. Something felt wrong. No matter what I did, I could bring myself to fall asleep. Ultimately, I stayed awake the whole night. I think I finally dozed off at 6am.

I woke up feeling down and tired. The day is cloudy…..it feels depressing. It felt mournful when I opened my eyes in the morning. I usually read stuff on allkpop, but I had been avoiding K-music and anything related to it for the past 2 days so that I could focus on my studies. The one day I decided to check it out, today, I was ‘welcomed’ by the Yoon Taek’s passing.

It , really. It so much that I’m even writing a blog about this. It so much that I;m crying while typing this out. Please don’t take me as a girl who is, or rather was, infatuated with Yoon Taek. It’s nothing like that. Plus, I’m only 19, that would be sick. This is not a love letter to him. This is just me venting out my frustration and confusion as to why the hell am I crying for someone I never met. I still wonder what made me cry for MJ.

But when I think about it now, I guess I understand why I’m so overly emotional. God, this is so unfair. He won’t even be able to see her grow up, he won’t be able to love his wife more than he did before passing away. Life really is a .

I don’t know what is going to happen to the band now, but I hope, no, I know they aren’t gonna stop living. I think Yoon Taek would rise from his grave and skin everyone alive if that were to happen. Some people are going as far as saying that the group might break up. Well, let me tell you something, that’s not gonna happen. They love music too much to even think of that. If they have any respect for a performer such as Yoon Taek, then I hope they move on and create music that is much more beautiful than it already is. Ahhh….I’m being so emo.

I’m never gonna forget him. No one will. To stop myself from being depressed, I like to think that Lim Yoon Taek is in his Mahoroba right now. Yeah, even though I don’t believe in heaven, I’d like to think that.