CHANGE

Isn't change a funny word? I don't know, but have you noticed that when you start reading a word too many times, the word tends to seem weirder and weirder and weirder to you? I've always thought that about change.

Anyway I'll stop being weird. ^^

I have changed.

Haven't you?

I think everybody changes, it's just that somehow you never notice. I haven't changed much, just... a little bit. But that's to me. Because change is an everyday thing, it happens slowly so that you don't notice, and then when you do you're just like BAM WHOA WHAT HAPPENED?

So, last year, when I made most of my friends here, I was this really hyper, innocent and trusting girl, immature and insensitive and shallow. Vain. Lacking in confidence...

But this year, I've grown older. I'm more mature (yeah, but not as mature as most normal 16 year olds... I'm still mental xD) I'm still hyper (maybe more than usual because this time I'm not afraid to show it :D) and by my friend's standards I'm still innocent >.> But I'm not as trusting as before, sad to say. Now I've been hurt before, I've learnt that everyone has a few layers to them, and that even the ones you know the best have some surprises in them.

I don't think it's a bad thing that I learnt this~ It's helped me grow? It won't affect my relationship with any of you, but now I'll be more sensitive I guess. I won't be as shallow as before, I'll care more about you, and I'll treat you better. Before, I guess you could have called me selfish. Maybe you don't think so, but I do. Nowadays I actually make the effort to keep up with my friends, to keep in touch, I try to remember birthdays (although I still fail at those kinds of things xD) and I try to be myself more, while also letting you have your space to be yourself.

Haha, I seriously hope that counts as making me a better person ^^ have you ever looked back at yourself and your conversations from earlier on? And then thinking to yourself, "Wow, I was such an immature kid" and then "Oh gosh, did I actually do that? *facepalm*"

I do that all the time xD I'm such an embarrassing person xD

But one thing, I'd really like to apologise to MusicChibi unnie. I know I said I would do that challenge, and I don't actually know whether you're still doing reviews for that or not, but a promise is a promise, and I haven't fulfilled it yet. You're not my friend so I don't know if you can see this, but will someone who's her friend let her know about this? I'm owning up hehe xD I will write that story. It will take time, but I'll get it up here. And I'm sorry for the heaps long delay (again).

That brings me to self-confidence. I've met a lot of people who have helped me break through my shell~ Before, it took me a while to warm up to people, now I think it's the other way around xD But thank you to all of you who have helped me do that! 

People, I've not changed that much, so don't go thinking that I'm a completely different person than you've known. I still adore Big Bang and GD and 2NE1 and all, with a few additions. Like SHINHWA and BTOB, and you probably know about MBLAQ and all~ I'm still incredibly hyper, and optimistic, and nonsensical, and insane, and all... Just more busy, I think. xD

Don't read my stories yet, they're all incredibly embarrassing xD if you want you could try my graphics shop, but my computer is dead TT~TT so I can't design, not that I'm all that good xD

I wish this blog was prettier omg >< It's quite... plain... >.>

Anyway, I shall stop ranting (I mainly did this because I was bored, but I really do mean what I said ^^) and I'm gonna go, so there.

Good luck to all the victims of Hurricane Sandy, you have supporters and well-wishers all around the world. Take care.

Heh, if you got to the end of this, I congratulate you (Y)

I'll be your shelter, I'll be your storm

I'll make you shiver, I'll keep you warm

Be your forever, be your fling

Baby, I will be your everything

Ces