Kwangmin`s diary- revealing pages.

Hi people :D ! Well, its just one day at work so from monday on I will me on again :D ! *So excited* And congratulations to my hyung who took care of me through the games and I`m so proud of him !! It was a hell of an epic game ! So give an applause to the admins and gamemakers who made it and of course to all of us who kept this epic fight going ! I love you guys !! 

During the games you may have seen that Kwangmin had a diary with him all the time. Where he wrote his inner thougts and feelings about well, its kind of obvious  xD 

So yeah I will reveal three pages through the diary. One of those Minwoo read(that one doesn`t mention his name), the one which Yongguk read(mentioning minwoo`s name) and the one Kwangmin wrote his song to minwoo on.  So yeah, Hoped you liked Kwangmin as much as I did. I really loved his character and the way he was, and of course of my typical cheesy writing xD So yeah. Kwangmin tried his best! 

 

Dear Pikachu

During those last days, I have been thinking. I don`t know if it`s just me or if my stomach have eaten something really bad, but I think I`m love. This person, have teached me a lot, and he is really close to me. It`s like it was destiny the first time we met in the halls. In that surprising way. When I am around him, I start to blush all of a sudden, he makes my heart beat faster and faster. I`m getting butterflies, and its like I`m walking on air when he smile. Oh that smile, its more bright than thousand stars.His voice is like music to me, everytime I hear his voice, wow. It makes me feel relaxed, and make my smile go a little wider, only for him.  Not to mention his eyes, who are cuter than puppy`s, and they make me drown in his look and its like drug to me. Yes, drug. I`m getting more addicted to him for every day who pass.  His way of being may sometimes be mystical but also really sweet. He is the most goodhearted person I have ever met. He was the one who made my life worth to live, he showed me the light, gave me courage to things I didn`t know I could do. Is it me, or the game? Anyways, I am hopelessly in love with him.   

-KM

 

Dear Pika

I can`t take this anymore! My head get`s even more wrecked with for every day without him. I didn`t know that it was possible to miss someone so much, but I miss Minwoo. His beautiful smile, his adorable puppy eyes, his chocolate abs which I could stare at for hours, even if I was no worthy it. Not hearing his voice makes me insane. I want to hug him, experience more things together, have him by my side forever. Let him hold my hand and tell me that everything is alright. However, all of that is just a dream to me now, lost memories deep inside me that can keep him alive. I don`t know if he is still alive. I really wish to get stronger, so I could protect him, heal him, wrap his injuries, show how much I appreciate and love him. Minwoo was my everything, my first friend. Pika, I am like a lost child in a big city, searching for his mother. Everytime I try to forget about him, he always pops up in my head. Everything I do reminds me of him. All those good memories we had together. Should I just accept that Minwoo is away, that my best friend and only friend is taken away from me, right in front of my eyes. No, I can`t , I CAN`! Pika that’s so foolish. I love him, more than anything, stronger than the biggest waves. I found his needle today in my bag. It felt like just by seeing it, it torned me apart, just be seeing it. At that time I wanted to stick the needle on my tounge, so I could taste those hateful words I have thought. I promised him to not hurt myself anymore, but I didn`t keep that promise. How foolish. I remembered his song also. Singing the lyrics out to the air, made me remembering his high pitch voice, how he felt, his inner feelings. I loved the song, so sincere, honest, and even more heartbreaking to hear coming out from me own cracked voice. Now I even had to wipe my tears away from this page. Well I wrote down the lyrics on another page. So I wouldn`t forget. Forget the way he felt about me. His love for me was true, silently. It was times he didn`t show it so well, but I could see it in his eyes, how much he cared about me. Minwoo was the best, and I will always treasure him inside my heart. He`s the most precious person I love.

No Minwoo, Saranghaeyo <3

Dear Pika pika

Today I wrote a song. For my love. Please keep this as a secret so my hyung, Yongguk doesn`t see anything, that would be embarrassing. Yeah, he have read you. But he didn`t meant to do it. I still love him as he was my big brother. Pika, are you curious about my song? Well, it isn`t so good, I only wrote something that my heart told me, how I felt. Please don`t laugh at me when you read it I tried my best. Well.. Here it is.

I remember

Your eyes

 with an glance like the stars behind the clouds

I remember

Your smile as bright as the sun.

 

I remember when we spent our time together,

doing all the funny things I never forever forget.

Even when it rains, my smile will never flash away

Even through hard times, I will never forget what you said.

Even when I feel blue, that will only mean that I miss you

 

Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo

You one behind the clouds

Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo

You one in the sky

Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo

My star.

You will always be treasured in my heart.

 

Do you like it ? Pika, be honest. You are the only one I can share my inner thoughts with. Yongguk you ask? Well his to macho for knowing about my problems and feelings. I don`t want to bother him. I think he`s not so good talking about feelings. So yeah.. But Pika, please let this be a secret between us two? If I ever meet Minwoo again I will give him this song. Showing him that I was strong, and how much I adored and loved him.

-KM