Lol... Im just going to pour my problems out on you... ok? lol xD

I've been recently depressed with what's going on with school.

UGH.

No, its not that people bother me, lol

So, I used to never believe in that whole "Best friend stealing the guy you like" thing, because I always saw it in books, mangas, dramas, etc... so i always thought it only happened there...

BUT IT FREAKING HAPPENED.

So, I told my friend I was seriously in like with  this guy...

She was like: "But, he's kinda chunky... and kinda ugly..."

And I told her: "I don't really care... He has an awesome personality and that's what I like about him best."

My friend is a

I'd hate to admit it, but it's true. She's only in the 6th grade (I don't really care what age I hang out with, as long as I can get along with them), but she's had a total of ing 17 boyfriends!! And she only started dating in FIFTH GRADE. She brings guys home without her parents knowing and one of them tried to her... >.>

And, she's always calling me on the phone.. "I'm so sad... I'm angry... people keep calling me a and and ..."

And I'm sitting there, phone in hand, thinking. "HMMM. I wonder why!"

I tried telling her that she needs to slow down when getting new boyfriends. She's had four in total this one month -__- She breaks up with a guy and then goes out with another either on the same day or the day after. I told her to wait at least 2 weeks.

NOPE.

y did oppisite of what her best friend tells her and goes out with another guy right after I hang up on the phone -___-

I mean, I guess I don't blame her because she's young... and she falls in love TOO easily, even if it's not really love.

Anyways, guess who she's dating now?

Mhmmm, the guy I told her I liked. Yup, she's dating the guy she told me was ugly and fat.

She kisses him in front of me and looks back to see if I'm watching like she's doing it on purpose.

Hiprocrit little .

*Sigh* Am I being too harsh? GAWD, I needa keep my anger down -___-

Also, to add on my depression, I've seriously been thinking why I haven't been able to keep up with a relationship... I'm always breaking up with whoever the next day because I get so scared that it won't work out... I've only been in two relationships that have lasted more than a day... That first long relationship, was because it was long distance... I never thought anything would try to break us up because we were never together (I know, weird thinking >.>) Man.... I seriously liked that guy... almost to the point where I would tell him I loved him because it would just come out subconcously.

Guess what happened to him? After we broke up, I found out he was a player. He kept telling all my friends he liked them when we were still dating... When my friend (the one i told u about earlier) was dating this guy, she cheated on him with the ex I just talked about.

The second longest relationship I've had was with this guy I've liked for a looooong time. Like, even before we went out, people already thought we were a couple. When we actually were, again, my stupid self came in and i AVOIDED him!!! OKAY, to be honest, i still haven't had my first real kiss yet!!! SO SAD. Only pecks on the cheek and thats it (Im too to try kissing a guy's lips...) And he tried to kiss me... GAWD I PUSHED HIS FACE AWAY AND RAN LIKE MY WAS ON FIRE!!! Then, he tried to hold my hand and I awkwardly smiled and said sorry, telling him I needed to get to class... CRAP. Thing is, when he asked me out, my feelings kinda died down a bit for him because I didn't see or talk to him for a while... But i said yes, because I still liked him. The day he broke up with me was the day I was ready to tell him I loved him :/ And he also broke up with me before ing valentine's day TT^TT

He gave the birthday gift (Shinee album) and giant bear to another girl on V-day.

I was heartbroken :/

EGH. Lol, it's not like I cried for him or xDDD The only guy i've seriously liked was someone from a looong time ago. When he told me he didn't like me anymore, I cried like I was going to die tomorrow!!!!

I'm over him.

And I am soooo definitely over love too, lol. I seriously don't believe in it >.> Everyone's love dies out once someone they'll love more comes into the picture. Love can die even without that person meddling in ur life too.

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I'm soo damn emotional.

No wonder my fics are so damn girly >.>

AHG!! I wanna get married only to have babies :3 LOL. I want kids in the future... But i don't want them to be born as bastards... No way... >.> I was one though :D Look what I turned into >.>