HEY GUYS.

So I just finished writing a long English essay and my head feels all funny...it didn't help having a writer's block from my fics either >_<

Now I know I don't usually blog but I think I'll make it a habit now. I don't wanna force anyone to read or anything because more often than not it'll just be a huge stream of consciousness from this fangirl mind of mine ^^

So currently...I CANNOT GET ANYTHING DOWN ON PAPER. It was already a huge effort for me to write 449 words in my update for I'll Be Waiting (which of course, took me a whopping one hour to write WHAT IS THIS?) but to complete a whole 915 words English analysis essay on The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock was simply a MIRACLE /cue Super Junior - Miracle and guess what...took me on end 3 flipping hours - _ - as per usual, I'll just have to wait for this stupid writer's block to disappear before I get writing anything...so I'll Be Waiting readers, PLEASE GIVE ME ALL YOUR PATIENCE LOVELY PEOPLE <3

And along writer's block, I have realised some pretty depressing things...let's start from the beginning...

NEW STORY. NEW IDEA. NEW READERS (?) hold it. New readers? I don't think so. I've realised my subscribers have been in decline which decreases my willingness to write...BUT of course the motivation is still there, not only do I write for my readers, I write for myself (and Super Junior of course, they are my motivation of EVERYTHING).

I really get the thrill outta reading feedback and comments from my readers, I really do. I don't even know how to put it in words. I always find myself reading and then re-reading all my comments. They make my efforts worthwhile...but I know, some point during my writing life I've said that I don't mind 0 comments, as long as everyone keeps reading. However I really believe that comments are important to me, they help my writing grow and improve into something I've never thought possible. I will take everything any one of my readers comments to heart and I will try my absolute best to change my ways. 

/after a long shower

OKAY I'M BACK TO CONTINUE MY MIND SPEW (?)

So I may sound all whiny and sobby but it's just that my lack of readers is making me cry in a dark corner huhuhu~ I don't actually know why I'm writing this because there is probably not much you can do to help me...but to my current readers please try your best to read AND comment ^^ I will love you forever <3

If you're reading this, then you must have read my whole blog or you just skipped to the end so I'm really sorry I wasted your time...but at least you were willing to listen to me ramble!

-Love, Calvina/HaeppyBubble