I'm such a fail..haha?

Wow. I'm such a fail. Hahaha I'm even laughing at myself now when I should be crying. I promised myself that I wouldnt cry for anymore shit, right? The truth is... I'm a fail. I'm a fail so much. I don't fail at school, but I do fail at life. Haha I fail so much that I dumbly think this one guy is perfect in my eyes, and perfect for me, and us looking like a perfect couple, but turns out we weren't perfect for each other. I fail so much that I can't even think properly first and make stupid decisions XD I fail so much that I even went so far to cutting myself just for one guy that isnt even worth it. I fail so much that I date a guy that I think I like just to ease the pain. I fail so much that I end up dating the wrong guy...Aigoo... And I just have to live a life that I can't even tell what my true feelings are.... I fail so much that my boyfriend doesn't even care if I dump him or not. I fail so much that I no matter how hard I push myself, I can't get over... someone. A long time has passed and I'm still stuck in the staying up late at night, thinking about a certain someone, then scolding yourself for thinking about him, and repeating many times in your head 'He doesnt like you. Get over him.' phase. So this is how unrequited love feels? Even though I can't confirm it as really love, I still go through just as much pain as the people that really did love. But I don't feel sorry for myself. Not at all. I'm just irritated at myself for being so stupid. Everyone, don't be like me. Don't be a fail. :)