BARE

With unspeakable fear, I run.

In front of the crowd, a mask is on.

Deliberately I question myself,

'Is it worth losing yourself?'

Yet I don't even know

What's hidden under this mask of sorrow.

More like I've forgotten

Or wanted to forget even.

I hurt everyday,

No one ever knew 'til this day.

I kept complaining selfishly,

Though knowing everyone hurts uncontrollably.

I smile a lot.

Inside, I cry a lot.

They shower me praises, all too overbearing.

Beautiful, smart, and never boring.

Isn't that a little too scripted?

Your intention is for me to feel indebted.

Yes, I am grateful.

Along with it, I feel pitiful.

I screamed with my hoarse voice,

The sounds resonating and repeating without a choice.

Just once, the lock was opened.

Yet, the response and emotions all emptied.

What was I doing?

Letting my guard down, my fear looming.

Unknowing the fruitless efforts, all in vain.

The reflection in the mirror was in pain.

I then fell in love with a dream.

In the end, I had to scream.

Because no one dared give it a chance,

Before realizing, I was in a trance.

Reality gave me its punishment,

Leaving me there to lament.

I saw the ugly reflection once again.

But I ignored it, not giving protection.

I opened my eyes to another day,

It was no surprise, I'd say.

That my world had cracks,

Because I ignored the facts.