I have about 13 chapters now for My Angel J and although it has not fully removed all the negative heaviness I feel, the combination of going to an orphanage and helping out, the JBJ fanmeet and writing this story has helped a lot. 

If you have any Shawol friends who wants to read a story about Jonghyun, please share it. ^^ I hope that the story can help them as it has helped me. 
It's an ongoing process, we can't do it alone. Being alone with our dark thoughts won't help us heal. Come out and share in the sunshine. Let's work harder to live. Let's enjoy ourselves more. 

And someday when we enter those gates and see all our friends and our Jonghyun, we can tell him our stories and replay the songs Shinee shared with us.