Happy New Year!

I had so many stories planned for this year, especially since I finally got enough courage to post some of my jongtae fics that have been piling up for years. Now the majority, if not all, will no longer make it. Simply replacing characters isn’t enough. 

I wish for Jonghyun to rest peacefully, just the way he wanted. Seeing his name used around for other people's agenda and as an excuse to witch hunt is pathetic and I hope it stops.

Now I’m pretty free writing wise, which feels out of place and …scares me? I can’t really explain it. I remember I had a very long writing break once and I’m always afraid it might happen again.

I can’t promise anything anymore, that’s for sure, but I will most likely focus on only what I have right now and not publish anything new in the near future. I want to stick to more oneshots this year and leave any bigger projects aside / not publish them until completed. I blame my friend Cat for this last part since Cat always writing in advance, and all, inspired me (if you see this, hi).

Even though she won’t read this, I want to thank Koemi for being by my side in 2017 and helping me out with everything. I always complained about not having a beta, but now I’m in good hands, especially since she’s the first to tell if something’s off and had never judged even my weirdest ideas. I hope we’ll continue as strongly in 2018 (and that the birthday card you sent me finally arrives because our postal system ).

Due to recent events, some of my on-going stories shall be discontinued and some of those stories shall be deleted.

I’ve also decided to bring back some stories I have drafted for editing since I no longer wish to change the form they came in. Bad or good, it’s all part of me maturing as a writer, one year at a time, and I want to leave them as they are and publish anything edited separately (or in a pdf format). I remember a thread I was following here on aff a long while ago encouraging new writers or not as experienced writers be ignored or clearly be told they are no good. They apologized, but after several updates, I had to unsubscribe as I could not shake that message away and I know they had good intentions, reason why I do not hold a grudge anymore, but still... It hurt, especially since I too had to start somewhere and went through a lot before I found my style. Hell, I’m still learning and improving my vocabulary, plots, story and sentence structure and flow to this day because there’s no perfect writer out there.

Please treasure everything all of you ever wrote. They’re all part of you. And keep on writing.

As always, sorry for the unnecessary rant. Here’s the current status of my stories.

Kiss Twice – will be undrafted.

Mandala series – will be undrafted & I got new covers / posters for it but I will probably ditch them for the old ones.

Euonymus – will be undrafted (though there’s a high chance I’ll delete that first because it was too weird even when writing)

Out of Hell – discontinued & will be deleted

23:30 – I admit I forgot about this one lol I don’t feel anything towards it anymore, so will probably keep it drafted since half of it was Yukee’s work and I do not want to delete it without Yukee having a say too.

Night of Jubilee – I had plans to rewrite it this year and bring it to the form I initially wanted, but due to obvious reasons, I cannot work on it anymore. Discontinued and will most likely be deleted, but I have doubts about the deleting part.

Share With Me the Sun – I’m in a bit of a tight spot with Sun right now since Jonghyun plays a major role later on and removing him entirely means I will have to go back to the already established story structure and make some modifications, which, honestly, I do not want to do. I don’t want to screw up the story I poured my entire heart into, so at this point I am talking things out with Koemi to see what to do. If someone else will replace Jonghyun, that also means I’ll need to go back and edit the part he appears (if any of you caught him). My initial response was to stop writing it, but I really am close to this story and I do not want to see it go like that. Currently half-way through the new chapter, I’m not sure when I’ll update. Again, no more promises this year.

Red Moon on the Shore – the new chapter got delayed because of me, half-way through it right now and will most likely be properly updated this year.

Where Are My Pants? – will force myself to finish the new chapter / last part of the adventures with Wonshik story this month, after that, updates will depend on my mood / ideas as before… I also need a poster for it /fail

If any of you checked Slice of Life with TakuJae, I have no intention of writing other TakuJae stories. Sorry about that. Again, since I’m the co-author, I’d rather not take any other decision regarding it.

I also have no intention of writing those oneshots I promised because I’m an . So I’ll be more than happy if you call me an for that, yeah… sorry.

Undrafting & deleting will be done this weekend since I’m going back to work tomorrow. I’m also working on a new masterlist on tumblr since I remembered about pages (so I’m totally going to use them to my advantage lol), but the masterlist I have in my blog post will also continue to be used / updated.

Yes, with some exceptions, I am still not enabling comments on my stories.

And if you comment on stories for karma / comment streak without checking the actual story contents, then please do me a favor and yourself. Maybe you’ll feel better after. I’m not against pumping your streak or getting that karma, but have some respect. If I catch anyone else pulling that with my stories again, I will start blocking people.

I think that’s about it.

Good luck to everybody with writing this year!