To Kim Jonghyun of SHINee,

As a Shawol for seven years now, I can safely and proudly say that I loved you during those years. I loved watching you grow as an artist, grow as a person, and develop your own unique identity. And yet I understand what it's like to feel depressed and stuck in the bottom of a hole that you can't crawl out of. I know how hard it must have been for you; to feel like you didn't have anyone to talk to properly, no matter how many people were "there." And I'm sorry that we didn't notice it sooner. I'm sorry that we could only take action once you made an irreversible and scary decision, but I do hope that you have found peace and tranquility where you are now. I hope that you're thriving and happy and don't have to worry or suffer anymore. It saddens us all, frustrates some of us that we couldn't help you because we couldn't see it in your tired eyes, but you did well, Jonghyun. You did superbly, actually. Above and beyond what the everyday person does. You loved us all with a love larger than any of us could've provided, so now it's our turn. 

For all the beautiful notes that you can't sing now, for all the mesmerizing lyrics that you can't write now, for all the new memories you can't form now, for all the new smiles you can't make now, we'll make them for you. We'll give them to you. I will never forget the amazing, talented, and beautiful artist that you were, Jonghyun. We will never forget that. You made such a profound and strong impact on many people, so it's time we give you the love you deserve. Rest in peace, Jonghyun. We love you so very much. 

With love and sympathy from a Shawol. 

I am extremely upset to hear the tragedy that took place today, December 18th, in which Jonghyun decided to stop the pain and take his life. From what I understand, the suicide was depression driven. It's very unsettling to know that he was struggling and suffering all this time and most, if not all, of us never knew. I can only imagine the grief and heartache that his family and close friends are experiencing. My sincere condolences are extended to the people who were a part of his life as they try to grasp and weather this situation. Let us take this time to evaluate ourselves as people and the ones we know and love around us. Let us also respect his family and friends and give them room and time because this is such terrible news. Jonghyun was an outstanding character and musician and it truly is a shame that he left this world at such a young age. He will be missed dearly.

RIP Kim Jonghyun, 1990-2017. <3