Farewell

I've been a Shawol ever since I started listening to K-pop. Shinee was the second group I ever stanned and Jonghyun was my bias. 

I don't even know what to say. I just hope he finally found the peace he needed, although I selfishly wish he'd found another way to be okay. I hope he'll rest in peace.

I don't even want to imagine how his mother and sister feel right now. If I feel this sad and in pieces without having ever met him, how are his other members doing?

I don't want to cry, because I'm sure their pain in way worse than mine, but today it's such a sad day that I felt the need to say something about his death. I watched so many shows and fan cams, that I feel like I know them a bit, as if they're my friends at times. I feel like I've lost a friend today.

I don't judge him for what he did, because I myself have though about how easier it'd be to simply die before. I just wonder if at some point, he regretted his choice when it was already too late.

Rest in peace, Jonghyun, that's all I can wish for you. You and your voice will not be forgotten.

Shinee will always be together, no matter what happened. 

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seoul_lover
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I can relate to everything that you’ve written. SHINee was my second group as well. Jonghyun was my ultimate bias before B.A.P. I feel so shattered; I can’t imagine the pain his loved ones are going through compared to us.
I hope he’ll be forgiven, I hope he’ll find his peace. He’ll always live on with his music and inside us all. The heaven gained another innocent angel. Our bling bling Jonghyun.
I’m here, if you need someone to talk to.