I am not sure why you did this. I am not sure how much you must have been hurting to give up before you reached your dream. I expected you to be singing solo songs and composing until the day we both died. You are the same age as me. I liked you for nearly as many years as you have been singing after debut. I saw you several times. You made me so happy each time your smile could light up a whole room. But you were suffering weren't you? Even with all the fans love. Even though you are doing something with your best friends that you loved. Did making music get stressful? Was it being busy? Was it pressure? Was it antifans? We're you scared the group is over? We're you estranged from the members after you stopped living together? I always thought you guys were so close, so inseparable. What on Earth happened to you my Jjongie, my bling, my puppy, the other half of my heart? I really wish you hadn't have given up. I wished you would have asked for help. You were so young and so talented. You had so much promise. How many people loved you....or were you holding on this long for us? I don't know what to think now. I just ...I miss you already.i had been worried about this group for a long time but I always believed soon they would be back. To think that this amazing group was going through things enough for you to give up. If it was that hard honey you could have asked to rest or just quit. Why didn't you? Why did you make this decision? How much I want to know what's going through your mind?

Anyway I hope this was what you wanted. I hope you are at rest. I guess you will be singing for angels now. You went back to where you belong. You were too perfect to stay with us humans long I guess. You returned to where you deserve to be my angel, that's what I believe because I know you were a very good person. You must have been dealing with a lot of emotions for a long time. 

You have worked hard. I am sorry you didn't have more happiness in your short life. I will love you and remember you always.

My ultimate bias, who I felt was really my perfect man and soulmate. In another life I will find you and protect you from harm, I will be your strength when you have no more yourself.

You worked hard baby. Rest now, rest for a long time. Until you are reborn. In the next life, I will find you and make sure you are happy and have everything you ever wanted....

Goodbye, Jjong....