Why do I write? {Personal Blog}

Hey guys! 

It's been a while. I've been busy with school and I don't have a whole lot of time to devote to free writing. But when I am away from blogging for too long I feel a bit antsy. So I decided to make time (it's midnight right now lol) to write something. I've been taking this Creative Writing class. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT! I am so sad that the class will be ending soon. I love people reading my writing and I also like reading other people's work. It's definitely my favorite class I've taken so far. And I often wonder why I'm deciding to pursue Business rather than Journalism. But here are some thoughts I thought I should share.


Why do I write?

I write because it is a habit. My mind is a cigarette and my pen is a lighter. I have been writing for as long as I can remember. I remember I used to write in my journal in the 2nd grade. I started writing chapter books at age 8 or 9. Of course, I never finished them, but I did start them on paper and finish them in my head. I have been inhaling the smoke of my writing for over half my life. How can I stop writing when it's an addiction I've had for years? I metaphorically feel uneasy when I haven't written in a long time. 

I write because I'm hella good at it. Writing one of the few talents I will proudly acknowledge that I kick at. My writing earned me a full scholarship to college for heaven's sake. I've never been called a bad writer. I've been praised for my essays by teachers and professors. I've been praised for my fictional works on the internet. I'm ing good at it! And why would I stop something that I'm good at it?

I write because it's a stress relief. The paper is the best therapy. You can write and write without judgment or interruption. For as long as I can remember I have been writing my thoughts and feelings down. When I'm happy, sad, bored, or pissed off. The paper is always listening patiently. I sometimes wonder how I am so sane and why I don't have anxiety. Could it be because I write too much to let my thoughts consume me? 

I write because I'm introverted. Ok, so I hate putting myself into a box. And introverts always get a bad rep. But I honestly think this is one of the reasons why I write. I don't have that many friends and I don't come from a large family so for all my life it's always been me and my thoughts. When I have no one to talk to about my problems, or when they are too personal to say out loud, I write about it. I'm way more open and less insecure than I used to be, but I'm still an introvert at heart. And being alone with a laptop in front of me is one of the best feelings.  

I write because it's my hobby. Not in the sense where it's just something I do in my spare time. But it's the hobby that is special and intimate to me. It's my favorite hobby. It's the only consistent hobby I have. No matter how much I change, I'm pretty damn sure I will still continue to write.

So why am I not a Journalism or English major? It's simple really. I don't want to exploit my talent. In journalism you often have to write what they want you to write. And one of my favorite parts about writing is that I am in control. And I would hate to have to write things that I don't want to. I like to write creatively. Reality can be so harsh and unpredictable. But writing is my safety net. And that is priceless. 

Writing makes me happy and I want it to continue to make me happy. I don't want to get tired of it or exhaust it. Although I'm not considering a career in writing for my own selfish reasons, I do have hopes to one day publish a fictional book. I added that to my bucket list.

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