(I mean this baby got me quivering. I mean what. ) 

I'm not even kidding when I say it's been so long. I feel so bad towards everyone that has been waiting for me in a way or another and that is why I've been wanting to clarify a thing or two. This is a short list of the most asked about questions I got in the past months and my failed attempt to answer them. 

1- Why did you leave AFF? 
A: I didn't leave AFF, I simply took an unmentioned break the time of a summer. I see you guys coming on the train of 'author's block' and no, it's not that. Actually, I never really experienced any type of block whatsoever. My ideas are still flowing, but the motivation has been lacking for a while and that is probably why I've been so unproductive in the past months. This along with many other events in my personal life have made me decide that I needed some well-deserved alone time. Now, each time I try, either I get tired of how long it would take to write what I want to, or just get unmotivated because I know I seek now a final product that is not exactly the same as before. However, I never wanted to leave. Actually, it is pretty set in my mind that I will eventually get back on the tracks and soon get back to work. I just don't exactly know when. 

2- What happened to your big project 'Intoxication' and why is it now unavailable?
A: Now, the point that hurts. I've always been a girl who's really picky in my work. I am someone who has a clear vision, and work is work. I am good at teamwork and everything but it has to be done my way most time than not. Call it being ambitious and everything, but I need to be in the lead in this run towards success and it didn't turn out to be any good this summer. The person I was supposed to collaborate with and I had numerous clash of personalities, giving that both are two strong-headed persons. She, just like me, wanted things to be done a certain way. We broke the friendship/work relationship twice over the summer, always coming back with some resilience. However, things just didn't work out and I felt like this was of no use to continue the whole story alone. The main idea was, after all, hers and, as the last mark of respect, I let it go and decided that I would be better on my own. The last time we spoke, everything went well. It's more like what I call a 'commune separation' where both parties decided that it would be better on their own.  No, there won't be any update. I am sorry about that. 

3-Will you continue 'Wolf Blood'? 
A: I will. Only not now because it is not in the line of what I feel like writing about in the moment. I didn't forget anything, neither the small fandom that started to gather around this story. I just don't want to rush myself, thinking that it is the right thing to do, when I'd prefer taking my time and really give something worth reading and that I will be proud to show at the end of the line. 

4- Why does it take so long for an update?
A: Because, as mentioned above, I'm in the middle of the 'me' time. I grew closer to some people around me and let go of others. I also took the liberty to turn to other hobbies than simply writing. Among those; singing. It has always been one of my passions and I put it aside when the writing side 'took off' better. However, I ended regretting and went back to the roots. Now I simply feel like alternating between both. Also, I do a lot of 'imagines' with one of my two best friends ( Mariiie & Jessable ) and it honestly feels good that, for once, I really do something to make me happy without due date stress. As a side note, I also work 4-5 days a week. That goes without saying that it is quite time-consuming. 

5- Will you keep writing about BTS/Exo? 
A: Yes, but that's another point I would like to talk about. Back when I started, going for the 'popular' members was a 'must' for most writers because, let's face it, subs counts more than we would probably want to admit. At least at first, it does. Now, I've reached a point where I don't really care anymore and where I feel like writing about who I want to is more important. It happened in the past that I had a plot that would have fit a certain member of a certain group better, but because Jungkook was more popular, I went with the flow. Not anymore. Starting now, I'll focus my stories on those I like the best. Also, my bias list had gone under the knife and is now a lot different. Among the usual Taehyung, Jungkook, Jimin, Yoongi, Baekhyun fics, you might expect to see more coming. Among those, Yugyeom, Mark, Jackson (Got7) , Shownu, Jooheon, Wonho, Kihyun & Minhyuk (Monsta X) , Taeyong (NCT127) and many others. I don't want to specify myself to one fandom anymore. The truth is, I am an Army, I am a IGOT7, I am a MonBebe. Why should I refrain myself to only BTS or Exo, because some other little 12yo girls can't read about other than their Baekhyun oppa being utterly in love with them? Why can't I write about other people having real, fully developed plot stories about things that matter? I am going to turn 22 in less than a month, that ought to be shown somewhere, right? 

6- Who's your top 5 biases now? 
A: You want a list, fam? Here you go;
1- Kim Yugyeom (I mean... I gotta remain the pedonoona someway.) 
2-Kim Taehyung (the usual) 
3-Jeon Jungkook ( he cute) 
4-Shin Hoseok /Wonho (I just can't resist, yall, I'm sorry.) 
5- Mark Tuan ( I dunno, I feel attracted to the Tuan.) 

There is literally an évantaille (try searching that on google, gotcha.)of others. But those are the reasons why my brain is so scattered lately 


So, I suppose that is it for the moment. I don't want you guys to be deceived about what I do or what I plan to do, but I got to be true to myself. Writing is an art, a passion that I have, but I have to change things up a little. This is a passion that I love to consume in every way possible. Not let myself being consumed by it. 

(P.s. I am very not okay with Jackson's comeback. And I might or might not have watched Yugyeom's Hit the Stage videos on repeat for over two months and bought all their albums at once.... Play hard or go home.) 

Lots of love guys, I missed you all very much and I can't wait to get back on the tracks. 
Hope you missed me too in a way? Ok bye. 
Laulau95 
 

( you got a ing smile that can light up this whole town, boy, let me tell you that.)