Tired

I don't know if I can stand this anymore.

My mom doesn't like me writing on AFF, and even though I still continue I think it's a waste. I think I'm getting worse at writing day by day.

Its not that I don't enjoy writing, it's just that I have no idea what others think of my works, and I don't really know whether to continue doing this. It's tiring to write while juggling homework and cocurriculum activities, but I genuinely enjoy it because it's one of my only pastimes in a boarding school.

To be honest I'm tired, and sick of doing so much and not knowing what people think. Do you people actually like what I'm doing? Or do you think I'm a waste of space and not worthy of attention? 

This used to be a place of comfort for me, but then it just seems like I'm doing all this for nothing. I don't know if I should continue writing or just stop.

Please, tell me what you think.

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bbyyunki
#1
omg im so sorry for not being here on aff for sooo long tht idk your recent condition T.T but i think if its ur only time and u like being here u can stay here bcs no one forces u to do it but if ur mom forces u by nagging abt how much u write here dont even care!just tell her i need some fun time since ur in a boarding school and tell her not to worry and u can handle it.i think u can manage it since ik ur a hardworking person irl ;) .Fighting!!
mnopqrstu
#2
I think you should write for yourself rather than others. It really doesn't matter whether or not people like your writing. In fact, people don't always like the best writing, just the ones they find the most entertaining. So if you're not getting as much attention don't feel bad about it because it by no means that you're not a good writer. Don't let external validation fuel you.
Scorrox13 #3
Hmmm writing is my escape too... It helps me get things off of my head so it helps me a lot... If you love it and u like doing it then u should continue.... If u love it then do it don't think of others but your happiness OK....
And to tell u the truth I really like what u write and I knw there are ppl who love ur writing too so keep on doing it if u can OK
exonoah
#4
Actually ask yourself... why do you write? What is it that you're trying to achieve?
Do you write because for yourself or for others?
Now, if you say you write it for others, I'd say you're living a life trying to please others and that's no way to live a life about which you aren't sure how long it will last. Meaning? You gotta stop thinking so much about others' opinions.
But if you say, you write just for yourself, that would be a lie. :p Because then you wouldn't have been writing on a public forum nor would you have so beaten up about the attention you think you deserve but aren't getting.
It's kind of both, I know that. I mean, it feels good to be praised and acknowledged. Every person thirsty for acknowledgement, right? But just because you can't seem to satiate that thirst doesn't mean you stop trying to fetch water from the well. You getting my point, right? Balance it out man.
Look, while you write something, just think of your characters, and what they are going through...what they are feeling... be the characters you write and take time in that...think ONLY about that. alright?
And don't stress upon how others will take it. WALK NOT BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO BE SOMEWHERE; WALK BECAUSE THE ROAD IS PRETTY AND THAT YOU WON'T REGRET IT EVEN IF WHAT LIES AT THE END OF THE ROAD IS NOT WHAT YOU ARE EXPECTING.
In easy words. write because you love to write... when you do something you love and you enjoy it then you'll eventually stop asking for more.
Also, I'd suggest, DON'T SKIP YOUR HOMEWORK KID! :P
Cheer up! You're good... you'll be good. :))
exonoah
#5
I'm not a person who would go out and tell me people what to do or what not to but since you're asking, I will give an answer. Try to take it as positively as you can. Ok?
Skyful_Poof
#6
I only have three words:
YOU
MUST
STAY!
sleepingprince
#7
Actually everything depends on how you yourself feel.. No one can control how you think and feel. Your mom doesn't like you to write probably because she's concern about your studies and also maybe the negative influence. If you feel tired and stressed to juggle some many things at once, maybe you can take a break or maybe only write during your free time. You need to know your own purposed of why you write and what do you want to gain from it? I think it's hard to continue if you care too much on what other people think instead of what you think . Other people opinion is important as well for improvement but not too much till you lose your true self , and I'm sure that every writer want to be acknowledge for thier hardwork as well but that would have to come with time and lots of experience. Don't get too stressed up. Do what's best for yourself .
hwangleefei
#8
Hello author-nim^^ please...don't say like that...i'm one of your reader>_<
And i really love your story..so don't ever think like that nae?^^ i'm sure everyone love your all your stories..don't think that writing is waste..you make people like me happy with all your stories you know^^don't ever stop from doing what you love to do okie?please don't stop writing >< Your readers will be sad... ●^● and...if you need to relax or take a break then do it author-nim^^ i'm sure everyone will understand about it..but please...don't stop writing okay? >^< idk what the others think but for me once the writer stop writing their stories i'll be sad..because i can't read it anymore plus if that's my favorite story..i would feel more sad...
anyway, good luck author-nim!! I know you can do it!!! \^0^/

#uhm...sorry for my bad english#
Haniehanny92 #9
Hi authornim!! Please don't feel that way. I am sure everyone here love to read all of your stories. I personally love all of them. Don't give up on doing something that you love to do okay. But if you need to take a break or something, you should do it so that you can focus on your homework and your curriculum. I'm sure everyone will understand your situation. Keep your chin up okay authornim.. Hwaiting!!! ❤️❤️