I've heard the news this morning and it literally just crushed my heart.

I wasn't expecting this. I mean, it may hurt, but I was only expecting that Tiffany is going to leave.

I've been into SNSD since 2009, Oh and Gee era. Sooyoung has become my first bias. I saw how jolly she is and her happy and energetic makes me love her more. Sooyoung is such a talented person, but is really underrated. I hope whatever choice you did will showcase your talent more. I know you're going to get maeried soon, and I'm very happy for that. :)

Seohyun is not actually on my bias list but I love her as our girls' maknae. She act older than her unnies as times, and this shows how good she is in thinking and how mature she is getting. I was really shocked when I knew she left. I think everything is going fine with Seo, I cant think of any reason why she left :( she is so talented also..I just...idk why...

Now, Tiffany. My ultimate bias. I kinda expected that she might leave the group because of the snapchat bulls. I still hate how people dragged her down just because of a ing filter. I hate how they crushed her dreams. Still, I am so proud of her. For being strong, and trying her best in anything. She practiced and practiced singing. Just like all of us, she has an inspiration that aspired her to be a great singer, and that is BoA. I can still remember the moments that the other members said that Tiffany is still practicing even though they have the chance to rest. She is even known to be the black hole of the group for being the worst dancer. But guess what? She didn't give up. She did her very best. Then BAM, I Just Wanna Dance is born. She showed how she improved her dancing, despite the hardships that she went through. (those leg scars and how skinny she became)  thats why on that day, I felt like a proud mom. I love her passion towards music, towards on doing what she loves. I love her strength. I love it when she becomes "Manager Hwang". I love her eye smile that lifts up my mood whenever I'm feeling down. I love how she became my inspiration. I love everything about her. But now that she made her own choice. So as a fan, there is nothing I/we can do but to just support her, repect her decision, and stay. We all know that Tiffany is a talented woman. Her decision on pursuing her acting is not really bad, I see the potential in her when she was in SNL. Korea doesn't deserve her. The world doesn't deserve her. I know that there is no chance of her reading this but, Tiffany, wherever you are right now, I hope you are doing well. I hope you are eating and sleeping well. I respect your decision. This is your life, your choices. Keep on doing what makes you happy and we are always here for you, to support you, to love you. Thank you for everything, our bright jewel, Tiffany.

And to Sooyoung and Seohyun, just like what Sunny said; “Thank you for being part of snsd.” (which makes a lot of sense now)

As for SNSD OT5, I will love you right now, tomorrow, and forever. I promise.

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I'm sorry for being emotional. I know you all understand how I am feeling, and this is just sad. I'm on school right now, typing this, just finished answering a test and I feel so sad. I want to go home. But when I come home, I will still feel sad. Why? Snsd posters are all over my room. :(

Anyway, I don't know when I will be back on writing. I just need more time to accept what happened. I hope you all understand, my dearest readers. I know this is hard for all of us.

Please bear with me.

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“I will always be with you whenever you call my name” —Tiffany's line on GIRLS

“We're indestructible, unbreakable”