Unfortunate

Why do i always cause troubles? *Sighing  I honestly don't want any of it to happen but why it always keeps on happening?I'm sick and tired of it seriously. It's affecting my mental and emotional states. It's affecting how people view me. It's affecting how do they see me. It's affecting me.

i didn't want any of those things to happen especially continuously . Am i dumb or what? Am i brainless piece of in this ing age? *Heavy sighing. Is the bad luck always attached, follow or loves me? Seriously why can't she leave me?

All eyes on me.

My head keeps lowering to the ground.

Voices inside my head again.

Relatives of mine will say something again and will give me a new name just for fun.

it doesn't bother me tho but what bothers me is I FAILED THEIR EXPECTATIONS. 

Sorry i am a piece of crap. *Ugly Crying while holding my shattered heart

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kang2noh
#1
high expectations are so toxic. i'm feeling the same cause we got a new boss and my coworkers praised me too much and she in turn expected too much from me. all that we can do is try our best and whatever they are hoping for. don't over exert yourself by thinking about what others expect of you. so long as you know you are doing your job as much as you can, it should be enough.
203693
#2
You're not dumb. You didn't fail their expectations. You're not a piece of crap. I went through the same things you have ever since I was younger. They would call me names, say that I'm adopted, that I'm not smart. The list goes on. I was sick of it too. I hated myself. I lacked confidence. It was to the point where I questioned my existence. Everyone seemed to hate me form home to school. Then, I realized that I had one person that loved me and that was enough, but I know that this person will pass soon. But, I'll be here for you. So, you can rant all you want to me.
eee356
#3
Lemme wipe your tears ...
Ah, dont ya worry about expectations, they can expect whatever they want, that's their life and problems. Whatever your problem is, please do take care of yourself, think what causes your problems and try maybe not to make quick decisions, love yourself and forgive, I'm sure you're an absolutely gorgeous but a sensitive soul. Step by step you'll learn more about yourself and have more confidence and experience.
And fck their names. You're beautiful. That's your name.
sleepingprince
#4
Do not let what you can't do to effect what you can do . You are you and there's nothing wrong with you . In life everyone makes mistake and everyone is different . I think what matters is that you have tried and given your best in everything that you do. Ignore what others have to say. They are not you. It dosent matter what others say or think about you , it's more about how you think and feel about yourself . It's your life after all . Have more faith in yourself . You are much more than what you think you are. Go show them the real you . Don't give in to pressure and crazy expectation. Just do your best will do. I hope that everything gets better for you. Never give up on yourself but instead love yourself more