Today marks the fifth year I've been on AFF. I'm thinking back to the beginning and wondering what the hell have happened to my life in the meantime.

Let's take a time travel five years back:

I was in high school, slowly acquiring some social skills I never new existed. I was making friends for the first time in years and I wasn't getting bullied. I was a fan of Justin Bieber and wanted to become an engineer. I knew English to get by on, but my grammar was horrible. Back then, I'd never have expected to be where I am today. My friend played B.A.P.'s No Mercy for me and I was sold. Bieber was history and Himchan gained my love. It was love at first hip . He has been topping my bias list ever since. Now, five years later, I'm spending my fifth year anniversary in Busan, enjoying my last free day in Korea of a three week vacation waiting for my friend to wake up. A friend from another country, one I've met through roleplaying in the kpop community. We've known each other a couple of years, met each other first time in January and now again we met in Seoul. I miss the other friends I met in the same roleplay. Four people coming to France from different places. I wish the other two could have made it too, but with one being in Las Vegas and one fighting to keep afloat financially, it just wasn't an option. But we're having amazing fun the two of us and I'm culturally constipated in the best way possible. I've learned so much in my three weeks here. I've experienced so much I don't feel like I've had enough time to actually process what I've experienced. I guess I'll be processing everything when I get back to my own bed in Denmark

I'm in my last year of university and can call myself a teacher in math, biology and English. I have friends who date back 7 years and some shorter but no less amazing. I've gotten friends near and far, some online some rl. My English has improved drastically and I'm about to work on learning Korean. I write storied that I'm actually proud of and I've finally gotten around to stand by who I really am. To those who've followed me a while might remember I started here as "LadyTickleBack", it has been changed to "MastressTickleBack" and will eventually change to "MasterTickleBack". My name has changed from a female's to Jack. My family relationship is wobbly on top of that. My relationship with my dad has improved a lot but my relationship to my mom is kind of fifty fifty. It can sort of go both ways. I guess time will let her know whether she can accept her previous daughter wishing to get a instead and be called a son.

All in all, a lot has happened in the past five years and a lot of that development I can throw at kpop and the kpop community. You guys ROCK! 

Keep dreaming and work for what you want. Anything you want will be possible with the right balance between hard word and luck.

"There's no person more beautiful than a person who dreams," - Kim Himchan

Do what you do and be true to yourself. Light will shine on you. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not this week, but it will. I promise it will. Keep dreaming and do what you love!