Are my friends fake? UPDATE!

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Please click on the link above to see the last post as the following won't make sense, thank you! <3

The 24th May 2017 ( the day after finding out about the dms) was honestly one of the worst days of my life. The night of 23rd May 2017 my brother's and sisters gave me really good advice ( in addition your guys advice too) and they said to blank them, and I did. I refused to talk to them for the whole entire day. The worst thing is the fact that they kept acting nice and normal to me full well knowing that they were ing racist ugh that just pissed me off even more, even thinking about it is making my skin boil.

I hung about with some other girls and expressed my feelings and the situation to one of my good mates in class, she's seriously such an angel , I appreciate her so so much <3 after all of the failed attempts of trying to begin small talk with me, they started to get worried as I was only talking to one girl out of the 3. As I was talking to my friend, the other two (who were chatting behind my back) , I heard them say "oh.. so you didn't delete the messages?!" And their were covering their mouths and wide eyed. In my head I was like "bulls eye, you two faced ."

I went home that day feeling so .. free? I felt like I was released of something, can't pinpoint it. I was still hurt by their words but I was glad that they were searching for what they did wrong rather than me handing it to them.

When I got home on the 24th, I thanked 1 of the three for being a good friend to me and I just spilled out everything to her, she ended up talking to the other two and they apologised through WhatsApp. It was quite sincerely and I decided to accept their apology and forgive them. Just because I forgive them doesn't mean that I'm not hurting or have forgotten those harsh words. I let them know that I will never trust them as much as I used to and to give me time to speak again as more often than not, when I'm sad, I just become completely silent.

So I should've made this post way earlier but I feel as if I had to let this out some how. If you have any advice please let me know, even till this day it still irritates me as I've never ever spoken a single bad word about the both of them.EVER. until that day of course... But still then I didn't say anything offensive things, ugh anyway I'm beginning to ramble, thank you so much for taking time out to read <3 if anything seems unclear let me know so I can explain further, love you all xoxox

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Moonzy #1 Jul 1, 2017 06:45:47

I think it was great of you to forgive them after that BS, but I don't think you should remain friends with them. If you see them in the hallway, just smile and walk past. Get a new group of friends. Hang with a different crowd. Find more genuine people. I have a feeling your "friends" will continue to say more harsh stuff towards you, just be more discreet about it now that they know you found the messages.

WalkingAdvice #2 Jun 30, 2017 19:20:23

I still think you shouldn't hang out with them at all. People like that don't change. Don't be offended when I say this, but if you decide to still talk to them, it seems as if you're naive. They could and probably will act much worse, even though you won't know it. And you keep on hurting if you stay with them. You know what you need to do? Make them feel ashamed for their actions. Don't do anything bad to them, do absolutely nothing. I think you should just say "I forgave you. However, I have no intention on hanging out with you. Not even talking. I don't need people like you in my life, I can live without you. Your parents must be ashamed the way you turned out. I hope we don't bump into each other. Then," wave goodbye and leave. I really think you should do that.