hi everyone oh my god i feel like it has been such a long time since i've written anything on this site, i'm so sorry. i know most of you are waiting for the fic updates, especially erstwhile and e4se--and it's sad to say that i still dont know when i can update. life has been so stressful (in a good way?) because im so busy with school.

it's my last year, i'm 17 now and i've been on aff since i was 12 omg lol the point is that 2017 is a year for me to face the dreaded malaysian exams, spm. it's basically a pretty important exam (like a college-entrance exam) so i can't really have any distractions.

i had a load of homework only on the first day of school, so you can pretty much imagine the stacks of work i have to do by now. the schooling schedule doesn't help either.

i have additional classes that last 'till 5pm, then i just pass out when i come home lmaoo and the fact that my grades aren't very good isn't helping. so i have to focus on school this year even if all i want to do is update my fics and write more & more fics. 

i'm pretty worried because i joined the BAE fic exchange this year, and i really really wanna finish that fic i claimed but i still can't find the time to do so. i did join NHE fic fest and my fic was already posted, so i'll be posting the fic on this account after NHE has posted the reveals. 

i barely have enough time to breathe, eat and sleep so i hope my readers would understand how hard it'll be for me to update any fics for now. it's a VERY busy year. i'd probably be truly free in 2018. like, i'm looking forward to 2018 so much because it's the year that i'm finally finally free to do anything? literally anything.

the only good news for now is that i got my exo'rdium in kuala lumpur tickets. (okay, i know i said that i barely have time to breathe, but i need to go to exo'rdium. after exo'rdium, it's no-more-exo for me until december i guess. im crying) 

is anyone else going to exo'rdium in kuala lumpur in march? we can meet up!

enough talking. here's an old short fic to make up for my lack of updates. i love all of you. thank you for supporting me no matter how dumb i am!

Chanyeol stiffens when he hears the familiar laugh ringing throughout the coffee shop. The door opened with a loud clink, revealing a pair of lovers, having their arms intertwined and lips curved up into bright smiles. He freezes. Eyeing his girlfriend who is busy texting on her phone, Chanyeol gulps. He glances at the couple seated in front of each other. His heart clenches oddly.

“Baek.” He whispers under his breath.

How long has it been? A year? Perhaps it has been two years already. Chanyeol didn’t keep count. It’s too painful to do so. Another cheerful laugh erupts from Baekhyun’s beautiful mouth and Chanyeol clenches his fists. Baekhyun seems happy. Stop it, Chanyeol thinks. Stop being happy without me—because I’ll never be happy without you.

It’s unfair. It’s completely unfair, because Chanyeol was the one who broke it off. He was the one who wanted it over and done with. He shouldn’t be mourning over his failed relationship with Baekhyun, because he’s the one who ruined everything—but here he seats, broken and crushed as he looks at the painful view of Baekhyun kissing the other guy’s cheek.

“Chanyeollie,” The sultry voice snaps himself from his trance and Chanyeol blinks in surprise. His girlfriend grins, pointing at his untouched cup of coffee. “Your drink’s getting cold, darling.”

“O-Oh, right,” He replies, but his arms stay frozen by his side.

“Isn’t that..” His girlfriend, Jinah turns to observe the person in front of Baekhyun carefully. “Kris!” She shouts, waving her hand hysterically to the guy who has his hands linked with Baekhyun’s. Chanyeol’s breath hitches. No. 

Jinah grabs onto his hand, dragging him towards the small table. Chanyeol tries to avoid Baekhyun’s surprise gaze, but then again, he misses those eyes so badly—how can he not stare back at that beautiful face?

His heart beats rapidly, swiftly. “Chanyeol..” Baekhyun murmurs softly, so soft that Chanyeol wanted to sob, realizing how much he had missed his name being called by Baekhyun like that.

“Hey,” Chanyeol waves awkwardly to the pair, “I’m Chanyeol. Jinah’s boyfriend,” 

“Kris,” The guy replies, guiding their hands to a friendly handshake. “Baekhyun’s fiancé.” 

The pain in his heart is so unbearable that it hurts.

“Ah,” I kissed the lips that kissed yours. I held the hands that held yours. I touched the skin that… “I see.” 

He lets his girlfriend talk with Kris, her ex-classmate, while he sits beside Baekhyun, feeling awkward and nervous.

“It’s nice to see you again, Chanyeol,” Baekhyun says, smiling. “How have you been?” 

Terrible. 

“I’m sure you’re doing well.” 

No, I’m not. I miss you. 

“Jinah’s a great girl.” 

Not as great as you. 

Baekhyun looks away, fidgeting. “I hope you’re happy, Chanyeol.” 

I just realized that I’d only be happy when I’m with you. 

“Baekhyun,” 

Are you happy, too? 

Baekhyun looks up in surprise. Chanyeol had been quiet since they had bumped into each other, and the foreign feeling of having Chanyeol calling his name is back again. “I.. missed you.” 

Then, Baekhyun smiles. He takes a quick look at Kris, his fiancé, his lover, his future—who’s still in a heated conversation with Jinah—and focus his gaze back on Chanyeol, his past, his former lover, his soulmate. 

Chanyeol knows that smile. He knows that look in Baekhyun’s eyes. 

“There’s always a second chance for everyone,” Baekhyun had told him two years ago. “Including the two of us.”