Maybe they were right about crushes...you know in fan fictions or stories.

Why I can’t get him out of head?!

I had crushes before but never like this. It’s not love, oh hell no. Just no. Ugh, it’s getting onto me.

It’s getting me frustrated. I’m trying to avoid him, but my friends told me don’t, because if I do, it would tell him there was something going on about me to him. He’ll know!

I won’t let that happen, (we’re friends by the way, and not best friends, just close but not that close, and you know what I mean). When I told my friends (Only five people who knew about this), they were surprised when I said I have a crush on him because I treat him very very normally, just friends.

The thing is, we’re just different but at the same time we’re the same (well, that’s what he told me). He’s your typical popular bad boy (not bad literally bad, he’s good, social and whatever) and there’s me (Comes the cliché things).

I hate that he’s close with a lot of girls and I’m just one of them. Just one of them. He treated me the same as the others. I thought we were close once because of something or two, but then again, we’re not.

I got jealous sometimes, like seriously there are a lot of girls close to him. It irks me.

I’m a realist, so I realized that we would never be together ever. And if he knew my feelings, it would be very awkward to work together. I mean come on, we’ll be working together for another year and yeah...that’s it.

That’s why I’m trying to avoid him. I’ve been in a friend-zoned once, I know I can go through it again...I really hope!

 

 

 

That’s the thing...I think he knows.

What should I do?