for months,i can see different things which open my eyes & my heart. before this,i was so stucked up w my ex boyf til the end of day I decided to break up for my own good too. I've been w him like almost a year yet he had another girl behind my back. 1month hes with me & with that girl too. after I found out that his family betrayed me.. his family knew that girl & even took a family photo w her instead of me. I'm not saying that I should in that photo but you know,he was with that girl only a month while I, almost a year.. he threw me away silently. /sigh

then eventually here I am now,living my own life. its been hard tho cuz you used to be with somebody & depended on a person to make u happy. you have that urge to replace ur broken heart by seeing somebody & rush into relationship..& end up u get hurt two times more. you used to receive good morning text or goodnight text but it was gone. you wake up alone,you sleep alone,without sharing what u thought about that day.. u have no person to debate with,to share ur opinion about the drama you watch,to hear you whine about something. i didnt say it was a bad thing. its an effect from being in rs then change to be a single.

I set my mind that I dont need a man to keep me happy. i try to keep myself occupied,it is not bad afterall. yeah i know that at some point ur mind will find a way to think of him..its normal as I said,its the effect from relationship. each day,i fill the whole day 'used to spend time w him' into spend things w something good. such as i watch the lastest drama..( & i became addict of it omg) idk i think the director know when most ppl got heart broken so they invent so much dramas to see XD btw I'm thankful for that. ♡ when I was in relastionship,i didnt have time to watch drama or update news about allkpop. i was so backward. now,thing has changed,I almost catch up everything news to what happen surrounding me. I can spend my time w my family & friends. what makes happy now is kpop & kdramas or even variety shows. I can do my hobbies without anyone stop me. I'm free & I'm not alone. I laugh more w my family & friends. lastly, I'm happy w the new version of me instead finding someone else good.

i think let go of toxic ppl is the very best thing. theres no turning back for someone who just didnt know how to appreciate you & cant love you the same way. we all deserve better than anything.

idk why i share this,it feels good lol. hehehe sorry if the title look so lame...thats whats i can think of for right now.