So, some of you might have noticed I haven't updated any of my stories in a few days.

I've been in a terrible place, emotionally & physically.

I was sick for a week, then my anxiety and depression got really bad. I couldn't even eat, and I've lost almost 10 pounds in two weeks.

The past few days were the worst. I completely lost my mind. I screamed and cried, and thought about dying. I felt like I was dying.

Yesterday, I decided that going back to school wasn't for me. I spent this year trying to get better so I could go back, but because I kept trying to push myself to get better so I could do something I didn't want to do, I didn't get better. I got worse...,

Grad school isn't something I'm prepared to do right now.

I'm sick and I need to feel better first.

So, my therapist agreed I need a break from everything. I'm going to the doctor this week too to talk about some things.

Then, when I feel better, I can look for a part time job and start thinking things over about school.

Right now, the most important thing is for me to start getting better without any time limit or pressure. I think because I put a time limit on my healing last year, I prevented myself from getting better. I spent the whole year worrying about going back to school, instead of really trying to heal.

Please, wish me luck?

Life is a funny thing. When the sun sets on one thing, it’s frightening. But, with the love and support of family, a person can also feel relief. The most important things in life are family and health. The sun may be setting now, but I have hope it will rise again.