This blog post represents my opinions, and my opinions alone

Last Thursday and Friday were this year's saddest days for me: I lost my paternal grandfather. I'm quite depressed having lost him, but I'm relieved that he doesn't have to suffer any longer. The strength of his heart and soul carried on until the end – he never stopped fighting.

Naturally, during this time, I try to turn to family and friends. My parents are okay, they've already accepted Granddad's passing and they're glad that he doesn't suffer any longer. They were more prepared for his passing than I during the last three years since his . 

My best friend, H, is more than supportive. She has clearly shown that her arms are open for me whenever I wish to turn to someone – she's always by my side, and I'm incredibly grateful. My sister has been great as well, supportive and caring. They both are there for us all.

When it concerns the rest of my circle of friends, I haven't been able to tell them. I'm not the best when it comes to opening up towards other regarding sadness. I'm better at hiding it, pretending everything's fine for the sake of others' comfort. 

However, when I tried, just minutes ago, someone I thought was part of my circles of friends have proven themselves not to be. I told her that I felt quite depressed and the reason why – my grandfather's passing. It took her several minutes to reply, and the way she did was incredibly cold. Text 1: "Oh, how sad" and two minutes later, "Sad to hear it, hope you are okay."

I don't think I've ever met anyone who has been as cold-hearted and uncaring towards the passing of a friend's close relative. It hurts that someone can't even show proper, decent care for someone else's sadness. (To those who have read my previous post, it's friend "A" – we solved things and seemed to be heading in a good direction: I guess not).

I only replied with "Thanks for your consideration". Since she was with a group of her friends and couldn't give me the slightest attention through texts, I didn't see any reason to keep up communication with her. I'm not the type to demand attention from people who doesn't wish to give me any – not even when it's obvious that I could use some support, which people such as H, my sister and parents have shown me. I'll restrict my support-seeking to them. 

This blog post represents my opinions, and my opinions alone