this blog isn't related to kpop, but i need advice on something and i'm sure, at least everyone has went through the same thing. 

basically, when i was a junior i had a teeny tiny crush on my classmate for history. you can say, we are complete opposites. while i'm an introvert, well… he's an extrovert. he says hi to everyone, talks to people and very chill. we have never talked, except that one time when he complimented me on my video project that's been presented to class. when senior year came, we had english together and you could say that i have changed a little. i was able to talk more to people comfortably, but not to the extent where i am sociable enough as him. 

we had a little play in class and my teacher picked me to be the female lead and he was the male lead. we played midnight summer's dream by shakespeare and ofc its a love story- thats when my little feelings started to grow. another time was when we had free period in english class, the class was playing xbox on the screen projecter; me and him battled it out on mortal combat x, we laughed a lot and button smashed our controllers-- aha. another time was when we had a small conversation about my work, him asking for a discount and me asking for a tip. ( i think i flirted a little lol )

thats when graduation was nearing and i wanted to confess. but as a shy girl who pretty much lost confidence, wrote a love letter. ( so elementary,i know ) that day, in english class, i plan on giving my letter during lunch. we had english together BEFORE lunch. it isnt what i expected, i walk in the class and we made a small eye contact before i look away, smiling. we had to read a loud in class that day, and i volunteered to read first, after reading; our teacher gave us a ball and instructed us to throw it to a person in class on who we choose to read next. everybody was looking at me and HE had his arms up, i threw the ball at him and the next words he said made me completely still. he said, " i knew you were going to give it to me. " ( he has that teasing smile on his lips ) well , he knew all the time that i like him. but after he realized that he pretty much indirectly told the class, he covered my embarrassment and said. "... because i had my hands up … " yep, i died. after the read aloud, we watched a movie and he sat in back of me, asked a question the food near me--- iafter that, he went back to his seat which was in the front row. when the bell rang, he always stands up and leave quickly. but he sat there, and only stood when i was walking in front of him.   

during lunch, i had my friend give him the letter. and after that, i spent the last 4 hours of school time, really really nervous. thats when after school came, we usually just pass by each other at the parking lot, but he was looking at me. it was the longest eye contact we have ever had before he completely looked away.

later that day, at work. his tweet made me die. he tweeted:

" i take certain comfort in knowing that i have a crush out there ( kissy emojis and shiz ) "

monday is coming, TOMORROW. and i dont know how act around him, part of me is glad that he wasnt awkward by my lame confession and actually acknowledged it. <3 

done for the day, sorry for the lame little blog. and thanks for listening !