Taking a break from writing

 

I'm in no condition to write and I need some time off to sort myself out and recover from the shock and heartbreak.

 

It's funny cuz I don't even know these people yet I can't help but be this affected. I'm happy for Kai, I really am. I'm not a fan who feels like my biases belong to me or whatever and I don't feel the least bit betrayed by the news. But what I do feel right now is overwhelming sadness for my otp and I have to deal with this sense of complete loss.

 

I'm sort of grateful that I finished What a beautiful mess before the kaistal news hit because I would feel so bad not only for myself but also for the readers if I didn't get to finish it. And about No Strings, I actually finished writing the first chapter (complete with author's notes) a day before the news was revealed. So that's something to be happy about too. ( I will post it after this)

 

So I guess I'll have more time to spend on studying and my upcoming exams.^^ It's a decent distraction and I need to stay optimistic lest I drive myself bonkers...

 

I'm not saying I'm leaving, I just won't be writing. My head and my heart isn't in the best place atm. When I'm done nursing my broken kaisoo-loving heart back to working condition, then I'll pick up right where I left off with my stories. The question right now is how long. A few weeks, a few months... I honestly don't know. BUT I will still be on here, checking/replying to comments and pms, reading a few stories, just basically lurking.

 

Thank you for understanding and for the words of support ppl have been giving me. It's helped me a great deal.  <33

 

To all other ppl going through the same thing I am, all I can give you is a virtual hug. Hope everyone feels better!

/hugs/

 

 

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Kana_Lee #1
Virtual hugs to you darling! I guess we all are on the same boat
Kyungsoo1969 #2
Aending virtual hugs from England xxx
nakatayouko #3
come heeere lemme hug you /ineedonetoo XD
alamela040401 #4
Take your time dear...you're not alone, really. You're right, these people don't know us and they have nothing to do with us as well but the "attachment" we created with them is way beyond the normal one and that probably is the reason why we are this affected.....I just hope this happening will not become a distraction on your studies.........well, in my part, to be honest? I hate Kai...not the hate HATE you know, I just hate it. I just hate everything, including myself coz I'm not supposed to feel this way but I just can't help it. I just want to forget Kai and the whole of exo at the moment. Funny or crazy I may sound but I really had the urge to throw away all my exo CDs and DVDs yesterday and I'm no longer excited receiving my copy of TLP EXO'luxion DVD and it , really. I don't know how long I'd be like this coz if I remember it correctly, it took me months to recover when Kris, Luhan and Tao left esp. Kris leaving exo coz it was really a shock and Luhan since he's my UB and that of BaekHyun being in a relationship...and now JongIn who became my bias after Luhan left, argggg... When Luhan left I sent all my exo stuffs to my parents' house and have them keep everything out of my sight coz i was really in bad shape (exaggerated I may sound but yes, I was) and I was so embarrassed of myself later on coz it's not like exo can do something for me, you know. Who am I? They don't even know me and I really felt stupid. But then after moving on, here it is again....

Well, lesson learned?........ I will now put distance of myself from them, like I'd have other things to entertain me with aside from "breathing" exo lol... Another friend of mine here was really devastated and I wish I was able to more or less tell you guys that you're not alone and all of these will pass by as well...same with the previous one... Let's eat icecream???? :D
Blushed #5
It's fine. All of us invested too much emotion towards them that it hurts even if we say it's fine. Time will let us heal. We just have to be patient.

/hugs you back and clutches more and sobs/
ChocoChen21 #6
WAIT KAISTAL'S LEGIT?!?
SERIOUSLY?!?
OMFG!!!
I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST APRIL FOOLS!!!
Ugh my Kaisoo heart TTOTT
Dont worry chingu-ya, we will recover from this heart ache.... And we'll always be right here ok?
We love you AND KAISOO WILL REIGN FOREVER!!!
universal123 #7
if it makes you feel better girl I also felt really sad when i read the news and that is coming from me who is all about supporting idols' life choices and respecting their personal space. I felt sadness in my heart even though i felt happy that kai is finally dating!! poor boy had so much bad things happening to him since some time!! I hope you will feel better soon!!! FIGHTING!!
universal123 #8
Don't worry!! take your time to relax and focus on yourself for a while!! I feel that you need it!!! You are a really good author!! I loved reading What a Beautiful Mess and always wondered about new updates cuz the story was that addicting!! And No Strings is another level of awesomeness wow! the first chapter exceeded my expectations!! I hope you ace your upcoming exams!! Good luck!! I also have a virtual hug for you~ here you go ~ see you!!!! :D
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