Hello, everyone!!!  loveFORyunho here and answering most of the questions that were asked.  I hope all my readers enjoy this little Q&A and get a little more insight on my lovelies from The V____ Experience!!  ^^

• Is Luhan is straight or bi?

I’m sure that everyone is confused and has been wondering this for the longest time right now.  First of all, Lu Han IS NOT STRAIGHT.  In addition, to make everything clear, he won’t ever be.  He is strongly attracted to men, but I’m not sure why he is attracted to Zuzu.  I don’t think he’s bi either because he’s not attracted to other women after he developed feelings for Zuzu.  

He’s still attracted to men just as much as he used to and likes Zuzu, but isn’t attracted to other women even though he called himself “bi”….  From an outside’s perceptive, it seems like he has very intense panual feelings for Zuzu.  (Please click on the “panual” word to a link that explains what the word if you don’t know what it is.)

I honestly think that Lu Han has panual feelings, even though he thinks that he’s bi now because he’s attracted to Zuzu and she’s a “female.”  He’s probably not sure himself what his feelings for her are, but I think he needs to have some time to himself to reevaluate them and really define exactly why he’s attracted to her.  

As a writer that doesn’t know the exact ins and outs of her own character’s minds, I think that Lu Han is attracted to her for other reasons that has absolutely nothing to do with her gender.  This is why I’m assuming he has panual feelings for Zuzu, but is still very much a gay man.  It seems like this despcription is getting more and more confusing….  If any of you need to me to explain, just comment or send me a PM and I’ll try my best to explain to you.

• Is L going to find love in this story?

L? I’m not really sure.  At one point when I was writing this story, I was able to see him end up with someone at the end of the story, but I’m not too sure now.  We’ll just have wait and see.  I think L’s a very picky man too, which will not help him much.  LOL

• Is there any possibility for a little Lulu on his way?

Uhhhhhhhhhhh……  HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.

LH: *pushes loveFORyunho out of the way*  Yes.

Zu (in the background): NNNNNNOOOO!!!

LH: *smiles brightly* YYYYEEESSS.

Zu: In another 5 years or so.

LH: What she means is that we will conceive our first child in 5 months. *winks in her direction*

Zu: Oh, God. *buries her face into the palms of her hands*

• How come Yixing didn't tell Zuzu about his cheating/affair himself? 

I think the reason why he didn’t tell her about what happened was because he found out he had cancer after he slept with his friend.  He was probably afraid that Zuzu was going to leave him, especially when he needed her the most.

• Why did he tell his childhood friend to do so instead? Was he scared to lose her or something? 

I think Baisheng’s mom’s involvement has to do a lot more with her taking some responsibility for what happened.  She probably does feel bad in some ways for giving birth to her dying childhood friend’s kid when he was engaged and everything.  

And, to answer the second question, yes, it seems like it.  Although Yixing was a sweet man, the one thing that irked me about his personality would be the fact that he was a coward and very irresponsible when it came to how Baisheng was created.  He wasn’t willing to tell Zuzu, the woman he loved the most, all because he was scared she was going to leave.  Even if she did, he should have understood her reasons and let her go instead of ignoring the fact he fathered a child with another woman and never letting her know until he died.  I think this aspect about Yixing was the most upsetting about his character even though both Zuzu and Lu Han put him on a pedestal.

• Can you tell more about how [Yixing] reacted when he [found out what he did with] his childhood friend? I remember you writing that he cried, but Zuzu blanked out.

Well, since he is the type that is gentle and straight laced, he probably felt really guilty about what he did.  Considering how he never told Zuzu about what happened, I’m sure he probably told his friend to never talk about what happened and could have ignored her in future gatherings with friends.  I can see him, waking up in shock, rushing to put on his clothes, and practically running out of that hotel room they slept in.

• I also want to know what Yixing wrote in his letter for her. Is it okay for you to briefly tell what he wrote? I am still kind of heart broken from him having a baby with his childhood friend even though it was an accident. /:

To start off, I’ll talk about the differences between the two letters Yixing wrote to Zuzu and Lu Han.  Just to make it clear, Yixing wrote two different letters for the both of them.  In the letter he wrote for Zuzu, he probably focused a lot on his love for her and how he died knowing the wrong he committed by fathering a child with another woman.  For Lu Han, he focused more on their friendship and only the brotherly love Yixing felt for him.  Although it’s not clear, I think this man is well aware of Lu Han’s feelings for him and censored a lot of things when he talks to him because he doesn’t want to hurt him.  Since Yixing isn’t alive, we don’t know much of how he views his relationship with Lu Han but I think he also felt a lot of guilt because he couldn’t love him romantically.

In regards to the content of the letter, I’m sure he wrote how much he loves Zuzu/Lu Han and how important they are in his lives.  He probably continued on to how guilty he felt for keeping something as major as this away from them for so long.  He didn’t write about the details about how his son was created or much about him at all.  In the letter he wrote to Zuzu, he probably simply stated the fact that he has a son in Changsha, mothered by a woman that he doesn’t love in the ways he loved Zuzu.  In the letter he wrote to Lu Han, he probably briefly stated details about Baisheng and then remind him to help take care of Zuzu.

• How come Luhan doesn't want Zuzu to give him oral? I am kind of confused with his reasoning. Is it because he sees this action as not pure for her?

It seems like I’ve already answered this question before typing out my answer.  Chapter 62 explains why he doesn’t want her to give him an oral - he’s traumatized from that with Minseok.  I can’t say for sure, but I don’t think his trauma will continue forever????  So, there might be some oral one day????  LOL  

• Does Luhan and Zuzu feel any guilt towards Yixing for their relationship? Like, Luhan is one of Yixing's best friends/close friends, so does he feel bad for going out with Zuzu? Does Zuzu feel this way?

I like this question a lot!!  Thank you for asking this because I’m not sure myself.  OTL  To be very honest, I don’t think either of them feel as much guilt for falling for each other in the absence of Yixing.  If he was alive, then I’m sure they’d feel bad but he’s no longer there.  I think they’re more grateful for each other and their relationship than guilty.  Because of each other, the two of them were able to move on from loosing Yixing who was some dear to the both of them and living their lives now.

Just going off topic for a bit: In the beginning of their relationship, it seemed like they were sort of using each other to fill in that void that Yixing used to have in their lives, especially in the ways they couldn’t have him ually.  Lu Han used Zuzu’s body, in order to take one thing that Yixing never claimed - her ity, and to experience what it was like to sleep with a woman, which inspired the title of this story to be what it is, along with other things as well.  I think Zuzu let Lu Han use her not just because she began to like him, but probably because she enjoyed the ual euphoria that Yixing never gave her as well.  

To end this all off, I’d like to say that although Yixing is relatively dead in this story, his presence is very strong and he plays a huge role in both Zuzu and Lu Han’s lives, which shapes the story in many ways.  No one asked about his character/role, but I thought that it  was surprising to see how much of a role Yixing has in this story.  I never actually planned for him to be so significant so the turn of events is interesting.  LOL

So, these questions were the ones that I remember seeing in the comments!  ^^  If your question wasn’t answered or my answers caused you to have more questions, you can always DM me or comment on the story!!  ^^

LOVE,

loveFORyunho