Apparently I have no right to feel any emtions because I have to be the "understanding" out of everyone in our ing family.

I listen to everyones' problems but no one is there to listen to me and if I make a small ing mistake it's like the world broke down and all hell broke lose.

I have to be the understanding on so I don't have the right to be angry, sad, or mad.

I have to be the one to let it slide or hold on to my anger.

I have to do this and that.

Why can't I just not do anything.

It times like these where I just want to disappear from the face of the earth and wish I was never born.

All I did wrong was no pick up the phone twice and get a text late. I called back but she didn't pick up and now its all my fault my mom refused to open the door for me and my older sister. 

Was it just my fault that my mom is in an emotional wreck. I do so much for the family and I take so little. Why....why do I have to suffer so much. Sometime I really just want to run away, die, or just disappear.