Uhmm. Its okay if you're not going to read this one but it's kinda bothering me so I decided to vent it all out over here. So here it goes.

I have friend who is crushing my other friend. It's obvious no need for you to ask if she really likes my friend. She likes talking about her, and me I always listened to her, it's amusing how she would blush just talking about her crush. Then one day my other friend (this is quite confusing so i hope you understand this,) admit that she feels the same to her too, but apparantly they can't be together because she has a boyfriend who is really possesive, so that's the reason they can't be together. Okay, it's also obvious that I like my friend (not the one who has a boyfriend ok?) . I mean who wouldn't she's cute and she is really amazing. Then she admit to my other friend (not the one who has a boyfriend but my other friend ok?, God this is confusing) that she also likes me , and ask her if it's okay for her to court me. I was taken aback  so I kinda laughed it off thought it was not serious. But I'm a curious girl , so I asked her through message cuz' i srsly can't face her it'll be awkward, if she is really serious about the idea courting me. (She already knew that my other friend told it to me so thAt's why ask her) then she answered that it was only a joke , so i replied "hahaha" to her. Then after that we're not contacting anymore , we're distant . I'm seriously awkward person in life so maybe that's why I don't have the guts to ask her why are we not talking. And then one day again she suddenly called me , like nothing happened . I did not bother to ask her what happened because I was glad that we're back to talking again. And these past few days she's been really clingy towards me , i mean like really clingy, she won't even let me to talk to others , she just want my attention , and that  i should only pay attention to her. Then we kinda fight because she just snapped one of our classmate telling bad things about her, so i scold her not to do that, then she yelled at me that i'm siding my classmate rather than her. So yeah we're not talking again. But just an hour ago , she called me, but i did not answer it , then she called and called again . Then she message me telling me to pick it up . So i did . I picked it up then she just blabber things again not bothering to say sorry . And then she said to me that she no longer like my other friend(the one who has boyfriend), because right now she has a boyfriend i was shocked of course, those past few day she's been really clingy to me acting like girlfriend or something, the she'll call me telling me she has a boyfriend now . But i still said "congrats" to her and that i " support " her no matter what. 

That's it i just want to let it out,because i'm hurt . She's been giving me mix signal. I hope i can stop having feelings for weird people. I hope you understand whAt i was trying to say, English is like my 2nd language so maybe thats why. And i'm confused too if i'm a lesbian or just a bi-curious . I even take a test about my uality and all the results i get says that I indeed like girls. I'm so dead if my parents find out about my dirty secret. Lmao