speaking up
Pretty straight forward, and I haven't written a free-form blog in a long time.
- So, recently, I participated in this debate competition (with eunjieun14, actually) and I realized how ironic it is that I can speak up to and reprimend complete strangers and reprimend-tease my friends but I can't do that to the group in between. I can't seem to raise my voice at aquantences, because I'm scared of something that I honestly can't identify. It just scares me, so I keep it in.
- People who put themselves on a pedestal piss me off
- I need advice - if I sleep at midnight I'm rejuvinated by 6 in the morning and only feel tired again lunch time, but if I sleep at ten I'm tired at six and rejuvinated at lunch before being tired again at six pm. If someone can explain why this happens please elaborate, because my sleep cycle is killing me.
- I think I'm going to harbor a fever in a few weeks
- Pisces is my horoscope for a reason, although only my close friends realize it (though not all of it applies to me)
- I've become orally insecure
- To add from already being physically insecure
- Got7's "If You Do" is too true in my life in a completely platonic manner
- My eyes burn in a fever-way almost 24/7 now (strangley not when I'm having classes on my native language or doing math)
- I'm physically drained but I'm stupid enough to procrastinate (and I'm reprimending myself as I type but I'm too mentally drained to homework)
- I can't bring a jacket to school despite my tiredness because I unfortunately do not own a black jacket and I haven't found a comfortable one to purchase yet
A few things to celebrate in recent days, though
- I enjoy the books I'm reading in class
- My bestfriend recently got into Got7
- There are only three more days until BigHit is obliged to give us comback information
- One x Bobby x Mino is something I cannot miss
- Sassy, Go Go is good for stress-relief (except when they're being angsty, then it gets really sad)
- Bēhance is good company
- It takes me less time to fall asleep now
- BTS and Jae's tweets keep me happy
- I understood a physics concept yesterday
- My friend gave me a YG Concert 2011 Photobook
So basically, just two lists to help me keep my thoughts sorted. Honestly, when people tell me that k-pop is useless it really pisses me off, because it's helped me stay positive (esp. Got7's Just Right and BTS's little quirks). You're allowed to dislike it, just don't tell me it's useless. Maybe one day I'll grow out of it, but don't ever say a music scene is useless, it becomes a driving force or sense of hope for a lot of people.
I'm probably going to be really inactive until April next year, aside from the occasional story comment or (potentially) a oneshot/shortfic I've been working on. No promise on graphics, maybe layouts once or twice a month. We'll see how that goes.
+ This had a really long rant, but I eventually deleted it and made lists.
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