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Hi guys!

I decided to write this not-so-short blogpost since I've been very quiet for a while and maybe some of you are wondering what's going on with me and if I'm dead (I'm still not dead yet). So I thought I should maybe explain a couple things about my absence from AFF... (I'm not good at expressing myself so sorry if I don't make much sense... orz)

I've been struggling with a huge writer's block since July and I'm still stuck with it now. Usually, when I block on a story, I can put it aside and continue another one, which means I never completely stop writing. But this time, it's really a bad one I guess because I haven't been able to write a single word for the last 3 months.
There are many reasons for this I guess, I wouldn't be able to explain them all. But I have a lot of frustrations, a lot of worries, and there's this little voice in my head that keeps giving me doubts and makes me question myself as a writer. To be honest, I've been considering quitting AFF (I'm still considering it) because it gives me this anxious and restless feeling just thinking about it. But I haven't taken any decision yet, and I really wish to finish some of my works (at least The Curse).

I know I'm awful for making you wait so long but I really don't want to force myself out of this writer's block, like I've done several times in the past. I think even if I tried I wouldn't be able to get out of it, it would just make me more sick of writing. So I better wait and see if it eventually pass by itself.

In the worst case (= me discontinuing my stories), I think I'd still give you a detailed summary of the last chapters of my stories, so at least you'd know what happens even if I don't write it. It's a poor comfort I know.

But don't freak out yet, maybe it won't come to that extend! I'm leaving for Japan and Korea tomorrow morning, I'll spend 3 weeks there, and I really hope it will help me relax and spark some new inspiration to write again...
Let's keep our fingers crossed and not lose completely hope!

I'll keep you updated about this of course. In the meantime, take care everyone!

XOXO

PS: Btw, I'm very thankful to those of you who are still waiting for my stories, still reading them and still leaving me encouraging messages. I haven't abandoned yet thanks to you ♡

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linkinpark2908 #1 Feb 21, 2016 11:27:11

Hi authornim. I wish you would be continuing as an amazing author in AFF. im quite a new reader and new supporter to you. glad to make friend with you. Fighting for whatever you opt for ;)

fallintopieces #2 Feb 7, 2016 12:05:13

first , thank you so much for writing those awesome stories ..they're the best and I read most of them ..hope you don't quit writing cause you're so talented but it's your choice and I will support you ..hope you find your inspiration in Korea and Japan ..enjoy !!

hslost #3 Oct 19, 2015 12:19:25

Enjoy yourself in Japan and Korea authornim, have fun and don't worry about the rest ^^
We will support you no matter what your decision is !!

mischievous_akmood #4 Oct 17, 2015 19:24:53

it would be preferable if you didn't stop writing, but it's your choice and if you can't find inspiration, then don't force yourself to write because I would prefer a good chapter with a long wait time over a not as good chapter with a shorter wait time... I hope you find your inspiration and good luck XD
and have fun in Japan and Korea XD

yanHae15 #5 Oct 17, 2015 15:19:18

I hope you enjoy your trip eonni~ breathe some fresh air and have fun. I'm still here...waiting for u. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

k_loverunited #6 Oct 16, 2015 23:03:54

fighting ^^ just dont erase them >< your story are amazing and i keep re reading it

jewElf_13 #7 Oct 16, 2015 05:35:24

No matter what..dont delete your fics. Thats the least i wish you could do for us reader. Hope your writers block will be blown away once you come back huhu

anusayaaa #8 Oct 16, 2015 01:04:46

Hope this phase will pass by. Relax yourself during this vacation and hope you find your muse. And hope you won't quit aff though. :)

AsianLunatic #9 Oct 15, 2015 23:44:53

I understand ^^ Have a nice trip, take it easy okay :)

whitelf #10 Oct 15, 2015 20:47:10

Have a fun trip!!
Wish you can get relax and get an inspiration :p
I wish I have holiday too >~<

pinkapple04 #11 Oct 15, 2015 19:08:53

First of all I'm grateful that you inform of your frustration and since I followed you in Twitter I know you are trying very hard to not stop writing completely.
Please enjoy your 3 weeks, thereafter write whenever you feel like. I will wait.
Hope you will always remember that writing should be happy and relaxing to you. A stress reliever, so you can just simply write anything! From your holidays to little things in your daily life. Not to limit to AFF. Maybe after sometime you will suddenly wanted to continue your story (and I'll be here reading your update with teary eyes).
Anyway I just want to say, you should be happy when writing!
Lastly, pleasw take care and once again enjoy your holiday.

kch626 #12 Oct 15, 2015 18:27:48

Enjoy your holiday, please relax and dont stree yourself, take care !

mennie68 #13 Oct 15, 2015 18:05:59

hi my dear just enjoy ur holidays take care ily eunhae hugs for u and stay healthy fighting <3333333333 :*)

harleyretinol #14 Oct 15, 2015 15:03:49

Thank you for being this considerate over our feelings author-nim. I'm really grateful to be a reader of your fics! I'm no writer myself, but i do believe that writing should be something enjoyable (though it involves a lot of research and hard work) instead of a heart weighing duty. So, please stop thinking about it and enjoy your trip and relax! Just follow your heart and let it decide~ :) Wish you a great trip!

P.S. I'll be leaving for Japan also next week. So excited to be on the same continent with my favourite author-nim haha :D