I'm BACK

It has been almost a year since I posted anything and I honestly feel that I'm an irresponsible person. I literally left all my stories hanging and it had me think a lot on quite a number of things.

I grew, both in writing style and mindset. I've been exposed to a lot of things this year where I really opened up my mind to different ideologies. I felt myself mature but there is still that 12-years-old in me when I entered this amazing circle of crazy and friendly fans who love and adore their idols.

As you guys can presume from my extremely corny and cringe-worthy username, which I half regret but is also half proud of, I adore and love Jessica. I doubt she'll ever stop being my ultimate bias in the KPOP industry which she isn't active in anymore and I don't really know how I can carry on writing fanfiction without motivation.

However, I really want to expose you guys to a whole new world. I want to write characters that are part of the LGBTQ Community, POCs other than just KPOP idols and truly spread the word on representation of the queer community. I want to write strong women and strong characters that do not need to be cold-hearted and rigid to be 'badass' but can be compassionate and full of light and still be 'badass'. I want to write characters struggling with their emotional issues and characters that are complex.

Hence, I've been coming up with a plan. To rewrite or simply edit my stories by adding in new characters or also changing the traits of some characters to make it more diverse and interesting.

I might not get a lot of support after leaving for so long but writing is still my passion, my guilty pleasure. But a short note first is that I've been struggling a lot with my studies at hand and just social issues and my whole life. Changing friends after 2 years isn't easy and I find it hard to adapt, to get used to absence of good friends. I've also experienced lots of emotional issues (specifically anxiety) which made me vulnerable at times. Furthermore, I've gotten way more hardworking in my studies since I'm going to take my National Exams next year and has cut down on my time for writing and reading.

As I said, my writing style and skill changed, A LOT. I've been a crazy book maniac for the past 2 years and is capable of buying 7 books in a day. ( I recently bought 7 for $30) Therefore, my writing have went a little pretentious and more 'professional'? Rather than professional, I would say improved, still not at my best though.

Anyway, I did not intend this blog post to be this long but I'm glad that I'm gradually getting back on track. Hopefully with your support and help, I can bring much more awareness on social issues and all the above that I've mentioned which I desired to write.

STAY TUNED!

 

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amanda_m_mercado #1
WELCOME BACK!!!!