recently, i've experienced having a first real crush in the reality world. being on roleplay for a few years gave me 
a little experience on how r/s really is. after quitting a few months ago, i finally had a taste on what love really is. 
you see, when i was 10 years old my mom will have my brother and his bestfriend baby-sit my little siblings and i. 
my brother finds a way to ditch him to go out with his gang, so his best-friend was the one left to watch us. he was 13 years old and he was
chubby, i always about it and we practically fight every day. there's even this one time when i almost stabbed him
because he pissed me off so bad he scampered out of the house. xD 
we had some times where we fight to the extent where we hurt each others feelings, he was like a fun loving older brother to me
because of his scoldings. 
when i moved to guam and turned 13 here, he greeted me on fb and i was messed up at him by throwing 
cusses here and there because i hated him. i regretted that one time when i told him that he's ugly and fat and will never
be as popular as my brother. we didn't talked after that. 
then on april 17 2015, i spoked to him after those 4 years. he changed a lot, he lost a lot of weight and is even so hard-working
we spoked all day and night, even slipped out some 'i miss you already' words.
i was starting to realize that i like him all along since when we were little, i only realized it a few days ago.
but the thing is, i don't know what he feels. 
those words can just be a mere brother-sister endearment, but for me, i enjoyed reading it over and over, mouthing
the words all night until i fall asleep. 
he didnt come on yesterday all day, probably because he was tired. when he came on, he completely seenzoned my last message
and never talked to me again.
there's this nagging feeling in my chest that i should let go of my pride and talk to him, but there's my pride
who doesn't want to get hurt.
what should i do?